mistakes we made for love (ON HOLD)

rrecovery;))

rylee p.o.v

me and august have made up and have Hung out for the past two weeks . I've stopped talking to josh right after he kissed a girl in front of me . now I'm sitting here in the living room by my self ,while august is in her room shuting thw world out. like she has the music on 100 its blaring ......just then josh walked in with a blonde hanging off his shoulder but I didn't care honestly after he brought me to his room to tell me everything that happend ment nothing I was done

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august p.o.v

I was blocking out the world as I finished my make up. I couldn't here anything from the out side world which is just how I like it . my favorite song came on and I started singing

"why can't u want me like the other boys do? they stare at me while I stare at u !why can't u want me like the other boys do? they stare at me while I stare at you. its true I crave you."I sung along until someone cleared there throat I turned to look into jacksons eyes " abt yesterday ........it was a mistake" he said . well that was a punch in the face " I know it ment nothing" I said in a bored tone . I started humming the song again . I pulled on my shoes and pulled out some beer from behind my bed . jumping out the window and claiming

down the tree to freedom . I was currently grounded for comin home drunk of my ass. opps oh well I'm still going out! " what the hell are you doing" he said " ur grounded" he added " lifes to short to stay in the house all the time . live alittle" I said . I took a beer and through it up at him . he caught it easily . he looked confused " u seem tense I thought I would try to help . I never thought I would see the day my.bad boy would follow rules" I said with a smirk "ur something eles yorkley " I said walking away with my beers. justs then harry pulled up on his motorcycle I threw one leg over and sat down .

before we drove off I winked at Jackson . he looked starstucked . haha never mess with a girl who can play games better than u can .

harry took me to the woods not far from the house . we drank the beers now we were on something diffrent that he brought . I felt good . I felt like all my problems were gone " I have to say your really beautiful august" he said with a smile which caused me to smile " thank you"I said " I have to tell u something " he said in seriousness . I nodded

" I love you" he said smiling " I love you to harry and I trust u alot" I said we walked back . harry carried most of my weight because I was completely shit faced . its about midnight which ment I've been drinking for almost 7 hrs . wow . we got to the stairs in our house and there was Jackson just sitting there " I got her" he said to harry . harry nodded . but before he left I said " remember harry I love you" I said . and I ment it , I did love him but in a brother way.he smiled and walked away . I heard Jackson growl . he walked me up the staircase and layed me in my bed " why did u drink so much" he said " Becaue I injoy it" I said with a grin " have u ever felt how it feels to fall in love?" I said . my mind was fuzzy "I havent fell in love until a couple of months ago." he said with a smile " who is she?"I said with disapointment in my voice " ur drunk" he laughed "and ur not ..so answer the question"I laughed a forced laugh "well thats for me to know. I'm scared she doesnt feel the same way tho. I think she likes one of my close mates" he said in a gaze " if u love her why do u kiss me?"I said anger in ny voice. he can't do that he's not gonna break her heart and mine! "your so clueless and blind" he said softly pulling up the covers and walking to the door of my room "goodnight"he said in a whisper "if u didn't love her...a..and I asked u to stay with me would you" I really didn't want to hear the answer to this " I would stay with u either way" he said softly "you can't do that to her its not right.....and I'm not gonna be your other girl" I stated matter of factly . he laughed "if only you knew rae if only u knew" . "u called me rae" I said confused  "it reminds me of ur smile its like a rae of sunshine" he said rubbing the back of his neck . I smiled " I hope you know tomorrow when this whole conversion sinks in and I under stand it I will be pissed as a mother fucker" I stated "goodnight rae" he said and walked out the room. I knew he was standing by the door ...."u never fail to get my .mind racing" I said to the ceiling knowing he could hear. I heard his foot steps walk away. it hit me and it hit me hard ..he was in love with someone.....and it wasn't me. just then I got a text I looked it was from a unknown number

you never fail to get my heart racing

     -j

you heard

   -a

of course I did !

        -j

who is she...do u love her that Much

      -a

is it bothering you? because u already know your the only one for me rae;)

              -j

  then why do u love her?

                   -a

ill see u in the moring

sleep tight

                 -j

why didn't u stay with me

                      -a

you don't need me rae

               -j

if only u knew... goodnight yorkley

                        -a

I heard a faint laugh ....then the darkness and numbness took over to a heartbreaking sleep

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