mistakes we made for love (ON HOLD)

trust

I looked into his eyes they were a darker blue . u could basically see the pain in his eyes . He unrapped my hand from around his waist and frowned " leave" he said firmly  . anger is all I felt . his walls were back up again on second he hugs me and is  almost in tears next he wants me to leave! no! "u want me to leave " I yelled my hands were clenched " yes I do" u could hear the doubt in his voice " u brought me here now u want me to leave ! like what the fuck! why do u always push me out ! what if I don't want to leave what if I want to stay here with u god damn it! not everything is about u ! what abt what I want" I yelled hot tears running down my face from the anger . I started punching him in the chest " ur not the only one with problems . ur not the only one who lost someone u loved! I lost everything ! everything ! I stoped eating for months upon months! ur not the only one fucked up jackson !! ur not the only one! my moms gone my dads gone my brother is gone and u know what my last words to them were? huh? they were I fucking hate u all!! it should have been me I should have died not them ! they were perfect ! my brother he was perfect had so much ahead of him ! and me? I have nothing I'm in a gang . " I yelled . he just sat there and let me punch him and cry . he knew I needed this and he was wrong this was way to much info for him to know . he held my hands tight finally stoping them . he pulled me into his arms " I'm not the only one who pushes people away . u never told me any of this" he said "I had no intention to" I replied "why don't u trust me" I whispered "I brought u here ! I've never brought anyone here .. that means something right?"he said on a low voice . " and telling u abt my parents means something right?" I said

he nodded " u have idea the affect u have on people .....or me" he smiled . that award winning smile ...then ever so gently he kissed my lips