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Namjoon // Your Insecurities (♕)

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June 23, 2015, The Day I Met Kim Namjoon. The Day I Fell For A Guy, The First Time I've Fallen For A Guy.
September 23, 2015, The Day The Love Of My Life, Asked Me Out. The Day Everything Changed... Well Not Everything.

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Joonieee 💞 -
Heyyy jagiya, you ready for tonight.
Y/N -
Yeahhh. Hey umm you never told me what time you're gonna pick me up. Hehe c:
Joonieee 💞 -
Oh yeah, sorry I forgot. I'll be there at 6.
Y/N -
Okay so 6:30. I'll be ready by 6. ^^
Joonieee 💞 -
Haha so funny. See ya soon jagiya.
Y/N -
Hahaha see ya soon oppa.

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Today is Mine and Joonie's one year anniversary. For once, I'm wearing a dress and exposing my legs. It's a baggy dress, but at least I'm showing my legs. I'm insecure. Really insecure actually. Ever since I was little I've been bullied for being chubby, so in middle school I started wearing baggy clothes and jeans. I've graduated high school, and I'm still the same. I'm also insecure about my smile. Everyone, well everyone that's seen my smile, says it's cute. I've never believed it. So tonight will be a small surprise for my Joonie. He'll be seeing my legs. That sounds silly but it's true.
We've been dating for a year and he's never seen my legs, my smile, me shirtless or um..naked. He's only seen me in my everyday average outfit, baggy shirt, slightly skinny jeans, and whatever shoes. I know it's crazy huh? We've been dating for a year and he's never seen me smile. See when you're extremely insecure about something, you hide it like your life depends on it. He knows I don't like wearing exposing clothes, he respects that. See, dating Namjoon did pull me out of this depression I was in, but it didn't change my insecurities. I'm scared for the day my Joonie is gonna ask me why I dress the way I do.

-Time Skip-6:30pm-

"Heyy jagiyaaaa, woah" I could tell he was surprised, and he was blushing it was adorable. So of course seeing my "manly man" blushing, I began to become dark red. "Uhmm hey oppa. Y-you ready?" He could also tell I was embarrassed and shy, which made him shyly smile. "Y/N" I could already tell what he was about to say. "Yesss Joonie?" "Yo-your legs, they're exposed?" He felt my forehead. "Are you sure you're feeling alright jagi?" "Ne , You Pabo" I couldn't help but giggle. "Minho made me wear a dress tonight. I can change if you want?" I couldn't help but think, he's going gaga over my legs, I don't think it'll be the same for the rest of me. "A-ani it's just wow, I don't know. You have cute legs" I giggled at the sound of the words, cute legs. "You're so dumb Joonie. Let's go before we're late oppa"

- Time Skip -
*Arrived At Restaurant And Got Seated*

"Yahhh Joonie this is so cuteee!!" One thing Namjoon is good at is planning dates. For our one year anniversary, he made reservations to the restaurant we had our first date at. "I thought you'd think it's cute. I know you love this place and we haven't came here in awhile plus, why not celebrate one year, at the place we had our first date and first kiss" Namjoon said with a cute little smile and wink. I smiled... but covered it. Namjoon saw this is and kinda got sad and a little irritated but brushed it off.

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(A/N Sorry For All The Time Skips)

After the date, it was kinda late so we just went to Namjoon's and spent the night there.
"Yahh Joonie, I don't have pajamas..."
He smirked and I knew what he was gonna say. "Uhh jagiya you know what would be really cute..? and is kinda your only option" I rolled my eyes and smiled as Namjoon got excited. "If I were to wear one of your shirts and pair of shorts" I giggled as he nodded like a little boy who just got asked if he wants candy. He tossed me my pajamas for the night as I took off my shoes. "I'm gonna go change in the bathroom real quick, can you put my phone on the charger please oppa?" I saw him pout for a quick second, then smile again. "Yeahh jagiya, I'm gonna get the bed ready."
I went it to the bathroom and almost cried. I'm making him upset now, like he's told me multiple times that he doesn't care what I look like or how skinny I am. He loves me. I'm Just too shy and embarrassed. I got changed and walked to the bed. I cuddled next to him and boom, it happened. The words I dreaded hearing. "Y/N, why do you cover your smile and wear baggy clothes?" I couldn't breathe. "Hmm oppa?" I said acting like I didn't hear him. "You know you heard me." I knew I had to tell him one day, so I did. I grew as much confidence as I could, which wasn't a lot, and sat up to tell him. I sat up and looked at Namjoon with glassy eyes. Right before I could speak tears fell down my cheeks. I wiped them with my sleeves and told him, it was hard to speak since I was slightly shaking and stuttering. I was a crying mess, and he hated seeing me like this. "Ever since I was li-little I've been b-bullied for being to ch-chubby or b-big. In middle school I-I started to wear baggy clothes-" I tried to stop crying but my body wouldn't let me. I stopped talking to catch my. breath and close my eyes for a little to calm down. It wasn't working until, I opened my eyes to Namjoon grabbing my hand. I calmed down just enough to talk without stuttering but, I was still crying. "I've always worn baggy clothes since middle school. Same with my smile. I hate my smile. No one besides family and some friends, has seen my smile. I hate my smile and I hate my body Joonie." I started shaking again. Namjoon grabbed my waist and pulled me to straddle him. "Y/N, you are the most beautiful girl I have ever laid my eyes on. I don't care how much you weigh or how much you hate your smile. I will always love every bit of you. You are mine and no one or nothing will change that. Those kids were dumb. I know I'll love your smile and your body, cause I love you. I didn't fall for your looks, I fell for the way you acted and treated me. You're looks and giggles and hugs and everything else were just a bonus jagiya" His eyes started to water while saying that. I leaned down and kissed him. "I love you Joonie" I said while crying. "I love you too Y/N". I rolled off him and cuddled up next to him while he grabbed my waist and pulled me closer. I buried my face in his chest fell asleep to his heartbeat.