Meraki

27:Her eyes

WARNING:this poem does contain suicide and may be triggering to some
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Her eyes

her eyes
were the only true way
to get to know her

her eyes could carry on a conversation
their color vivid

while her face remained passive
they lit up
curiosity filled them
excitement widened them
and drowsiness made them heavy

but it's been
months since those days

and the light...
has long since faded

those beautiful captivating eyes
that had put her whole world on display
are now dead and empty,
placid and sad

I guess you could say
that they still
put her whole world on display

just instead of the perfect clear eyes that twinkled and laughed

they were now a warzone riddled with tears and streaks of mascara

she had hidden
the conflict
that went down in her head
and every night
they haunted her
as she lay in bed

it was then that
she would debate
whether she was good enough
skinny enough
pure enough
to even be alive

as the thoughts sank into her mind
so did a razor into her skin

and those alluring eyes were there to record every insicion

eventually
her eyes
and thighs
became so scarred

that she decided to end her suffering

she walked across town
trying to think of a way
to end it all

when her eyes happened upon
the captivating ocean

the same color as her eyes once were before they dulled
but just as deep and mysterious

it lured her
to its welcoming waves
entracing her
with its pure white sea foam

she took of her shoes and ran
towards the highest cliff she could find

that hung over the gorgeous water

the gravel of the path
painfully
yet thrillingly
digging into her heels

the dry dusty dirt
coated her feet and jeans
as it was kicked up behind her

the salty smell
tantalizing her
to its rocky edge

she peeled off her clothes
which had stuck to her tan skin
from the sweat of the run

bracing herself
without second thought
flung herself over the edge
into the perilous waters below

she wanted to go out
the same way she came

naked, scared,
and screaming

she was found
her body dead
her soul kindred
and those
god damn eyes
brighter then they had been
her entire life

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