Magcon Group Chat || S.M.{ON HOLD}

44%

important authors note at the end. please read. this is also UNEDITED

-5 days later-

"Bart my best friend is here on vacation and I haven't seen her in months. Could i ask if she wants to come to a show?" I heard Hunter asked Bart when we arrived in our hotel in Rio De Janeiro

"Yeah, just make sure her parents are fine with it" Bart had told Hunter and I seen him start to squirm around in his seat, doing a little happy dance

"Excited Hunt?" I asked/laughed

"Very, I haven't seen Ali in months" he chuckled taking out his phone, probably to text her

"Hunter, ask her once we get everyone up to their rooms" Bart said. He isn't in the best mood today. Oh and I forgot to say that Becky, Aaron's mom, has come with us for this part of the tour. She is a sweetheart, and makes me feel like I have a 'mom'

"Bart can I have my key, please?" I asked really quietly. These past few days I've been really anxious but have been able to calm myself down enough not to have an attack. I actually asked for a room to myself, but told Bart I would pay for it, which he said he would get the extra room but wouldn't let me pay for it. We argued but decided to pay half and half.

"Let me know if you need anything" He smiled and passed me my key. I told Bart a few days ago that i haven't been feeling the best so he understood

"I'm going up to my room, I'll text you in a bit" I told Shawn. He gave me a confused look but nodded anyways. I know that if I told him or the Jack's the way i was feeling that they wouldn't let me be alone for any given time, so I decided to try to handle things on my own. Luckily Gracie and Jillian will be sharing a room with Mahogany. I arrived at my hotel room door, unlocking it, I found a double bed, TV, mini kitchen and a sofa. This room is much bigger than I expected, but I'll  be here for a week so why not have space. I placed my carry on on the sofa and put my suitcase next to it.

My Canadian❤️: hun are you okay?
Erin🍍: yeah i just asked for my own room, that's all
My Canadian❤️: Erin please talk to me. I am your boyfriend and I love you more than you could imagine. I know you haven't been yourself again these pass few days and now you're wanting a room to yourself? What's going on with you?
Erin🍍: okay fine. i've been getting really anxious lately and i am able to push it away but being around groups of people make it worse and it's hard when you're sharing a room with someone to be able to sit down and talk yourself through what's going through my head. it's anything from you, to tour, to not being able to post a video and let down my viewers. it's just a lot to handle and i don't like telling you guys about it because i feel like i'm just a burden and feel like i'm being dramatic. shawn i love you so much and i don't want you to worry about me that's why i don't tell you
My Canadian❤️: darling i am here for you. i am here to hug you when you're  sad, cuddle you when you're cold, kiss you when you need to feel safe, and love you all the time. i NEED you to talk to me whenever you feel anything but yourself. i am here to help you get through the rough patches and here to be with you during your greatest moments. i'm here even if we ever get into a fight or if you don't think i care, because i always will. i need you in my life Erin. you keep my sane
Erin🍍: come hug me
My Canadian❤️: i'm on my way hun

Reading those texts from Shawn made me cry. He deserves so much better than me, but he still sticks around. I can't even picture my life without him

"Darling?" I heard Shawn's faint voice on the other side of my hotel room door. I opened the door and was immediately pulled into a heart warming hug. We were still in each other's embrace but managed to walk over to my bed

"I love you Shawn" I said through my tears while looking this brown eyed boy in front of me, in the eyes.

"I love you too. Everything I texted you was nothing but the truth. I will never leave your side, and I know that you think you're just being dramatic, but i assure you, you're not. I would sit down and listen to your problems all day. You mean the world to me and I know you mean the world to both your brothers. I can't let you sit in a room by yourself and just over analyze things. In order for you to get better you need to talk." Shawn said with his hands on my cheeks so I was looking him in the eyes

"I don't know what to say Shawn." I shed a few more tears and he kissed them as they trickled down my face

"No need to say anything my love" He whisper and laid down on the bed and then motioned for my to lay with him. I put my head and hand on his chest. His heart beat soothing me and causing me to drift to sleep

"You are beautiful, my darling. I love you" I heard the love of my life whisper before I let sleep take over my body

--------------------

this chapter gave me the feels! but i wanted to thank you guys for 10K reads on this book/story/whatever you want to call it. i genuinely love all of you and wouldn't be here if it weren't for you. on another note i wanted to tell you everyone's ages:

Erin Gilinsky: 15
Jack Gilinsky: 18
Jack Johnson: 19
Shawn Mendes: 17
Cameron Dallas: 21
Nash Grier: 17
Aaron Carpenter: 16
Carter Reynolds: 18
Matt Esponsoia: 18
Taylor Caniff: 20
Mahogany Lox: 20
Hayes Grier: 16
Hunter Rowland: 15
Brandon Rowland: 14
Jacob Sartorius: 14
Blake Gray: 16

okay that you guys again for reading and don't forget to VOTE COMMENT and FOLLOW ME

~Erin💛❤️

WORD COUNT: 1097