My Only 'One'

Chapter 43-Anwers

I said all in one go. I really don't know what I was saying or asking. I just had one thing in one mind. I want answers and what would I do after that? I don't know? I really know whether I want to hear the answers or not. I just, I am looking for him to say something, something that would ease this pain in my heart and make me close to him again.

"I always loved you."

"Then why did you say that you didn't want me as your mate. Don't tell me that you were just kidding be..."

"No I said I wish you weren't my mate. If you weren't my mate and it was someone else I don't think I would have deeply cared for them. I don't think I would have loved them like I love you." He interrupted me making me go silent. "I realized that I love you even before he kidnapped you for the first time. I was hesitant to tell you. I didn't how you would react and the next day you were kidnapped by him for the first time. Then I realized my love for you is far deeper than I thought. I couldn't even be apart from you for a second. It killed me to be away from you. I didn't know what to do if I were to stay away from you."

"Yet you said you didn't have time for me and was cold to me." I couldn't stop interfering.

"Because I wanted you to love me."

"Huh?" I don't quite get him.

"When we knew Gabbs was pregnant and her condition you said that you should have opposed more and should have tried to get home. I was really scared then that you would reject me. My only intention then was to keep you with me and make you love me. I thought if I tried ignoring you then maybe you will realize how much you miss me, of course I was busy with finding about silver moon assassins but I purposefully avoided you."

I didn't people could think in such a way! I mean of course I said I should have protested more instead of staying here obediently which is what everyone would have done but I didn't. When I knew that my cousin's health is not good and I did nothing and am partially responsible wouldn't I be angry? Don't I have that right? Moreover I never said anything about leaving him. I really don't know how these vampires think. I think I am right these vampires with increasing age instead of turning wise are turning rather foolish and stupid.

"I want you stay with me forever. I don't want to lose you. I acted cold but still you were fine and bubbly enjoying with others though I am not with you."

Woah! Woah! Where did this come from? Who said I was bubbly? I was very miserable and had to overact that everything was fine. "I snapped when I saw you at the mall all happy and clinging to the bunny Barone."

I wasn't clinging to him. He was pulling me to the chocolate house by my hand and you can't even count it as hand touch because he was entirely covered in bunny suit. Wait a second! I am going crazy! So all this time he made me suffer for such a petty reason? I refuse to acknowledge it as a reason. They are not even reasons? He means to say I suffered all those days because of his silliness. All my heartache and locking myself all those days and the mental torture is all for nothing. He made me suffer for no reason. Should I cry with happiness that he doesn't hate me or hit him for his silliness.

His face suddenly showed panic and then I realized a tear dropped from my eye but before I could realize and stop some more tears rolled down. Blake moved his body already close to mine a little more close in order to hug me and console me but when I realized his intentions I shoved him back and shook my head at him with tears rolling down. I walked away from him briskly leaving the clothes there. I will take some other set after all there are so many in the closet, if not now when they would be useful.

For the first time I felt it irritating to have this big closet, sure clothes were organised and sorted but looking for a thin T-shirt in this pile of T-shirts was very hard considering nothing matched my taste now since I am in a very foul mood. I managed to find some fault with every shirt and tossed it aside. I know people worked hard to fold it neatly and arranged it but still I threw them aside all messy. This is all that stupid's fault for getting me this big of a closet! Stupid idiotic vampire prince. He's very stupid.

I got vexed with all my T-shirts and threw all the neatly arranged ones down. Though my conscience is telling me to stop and don't make it hard for the others my mind is not in a state to process all these things. I grabbed short shorts and put them on first. I looked towards Blake's clothes and in the casual side there is a long white T-shirt of thin material. I took it and wore it on and it engulfed me coming mid thigh and loose on me but it felt good. It is not because the T-shirt belongs to Blake. It's just comfortable and I feel good. It has nothing to do with Blake, his presence and his faint scent on this T-shirt. Absolutely nothing! I don't care!

I am going to be angry at him for a long time! If possible I won't forgive him at all. Since he is silly and childish I will also be childish! I won't forgive him and take my revenge on him! He too should feel my heartache! I am so angry with him. Stupid Prince! I wiped away my tears furiously! I am not going to cry for him! Not at all! I came out of the closet and found Blake standing there waiting for me. I narrowed my eyes at him and went to the bed curling into a ball to sleep.

Somehow all the exhaustion caught up to especially my mental state and I felt damn sleepy as soon as my body touched the soft mattress. I was fast asleep because of exhaustion. It has nothing to do with Blake. His presence beside me and his strong hands that wrapped around me has got nothing to with it. I felt safe but it's just because the danger was gone. It has nothing to do with the stupid vampire prince!

***************************************************************************************Finally the awaited reason for Blake's coldness!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As I said it is a petty reason but to him it mattered a lot. Try to think of it in Blake's p.o.v but then again e should have just been upfront about it! Now our Sophie is angry with him though she clearly wants him! What do you think would happen? When will she forgive him? We will get there in the next chapters!

But by the way guys it is seriously boring to write! It is taking me days to write! May be the next update will take more than a week!(A little warning) I am trying my best to get motivated to sit down and write calmly.

Till next update! Read, vote and comment!Bye my lovelies!