Finding You

Chapter ~~4

            He stood there staring at me. The water in my eyes threatened to spillover but I pushed it back with all my strength, refusing to cry in front of him. I stared back at him, with as cold a gaze as I could muster. When will he get the hint that I want him to leave me alone in my misery?

            “I’ll come back later to check up on you” he walked out the room.

            I turned and lay on my side facing the wall. As soon as the door closed I let go and let my sadness take me. My sobs hit me hard, tears streamed down my face. How could this have happened? Why did they have to leave me? I heard the door open. I tried to stop my tears, but I was already worked up. I smell mint. Lucas is here. Why can’t I get a hold of myself? The bed squeaked under his weight. He lay down next to me, and wrapped an arm around me. Even though I was mad at him I couldn’t help but take some comfort from this gesture. He pulled me to him and I could feel the differences in our bodies as he held me. He was taller and bigger than me, his body almost completely covered mine. I feel safe with Lucas here with me, even if he is a jerk. I began to feel like I was being crushed, by my sadness, by my pain, and by the world itself. I couldn’t get enough air. I began to breathe harder trying to pull in as much air as I could.

            Lucas turned me so I faced him. He pulled me to him, pressing me against his chest. He looked at me, his eyes full of concern but never said anything. I clutched his shirt, keeping tight hold of him, and buried my face in his shirt. He squeezed me tight, keeping me steady. After some time my sobs began to quiet and my tears came less and less. I started gasping for air. I’ve never cried this hard before. I slightly pulled away from Lucas so I could get more air. After a few deep breaths I felt normal again. I snuggled back up to Lucas, and buried my face back in his chest. I can’t look at him after he’s seen me like that.

            For a while Lucas held me, until he began to stir. “Navia we need to talk. I owe you an apology.”

            “I’m listening.”

            “You were right. I know that controlling people is wrong. I do not usually act like that but when I heard that Dr. Maston found you attractive I lost my temper, and said some very insensitive, mean things. What I said, I said out of jealousy.  I am very sorry for what I said to you.”

            “Thank you for apologizing, but I think that I need to apologize as well. When I told you to leave, I should have never told you to get out of my life. That was wrong of me.”

            “Navia I am not going to lie to you. Sometimes I do use humans, but that is only if I have to. Demons do not really get along with humans. If it concerns my survival, I will do anything to ensure it. Yours as well.”

            “Lucas my survival wasn’t in question though. Nothing about my doctor suggested that I was in danger.”

            “I see that now. Before, I was blinded by my jealousy.” He pushed me away, but his arm was still wrapped around me. I looked into his eyes. “Please forgive me. I have hurt you, and that is something I never want to do again.” He leaned forward and kissed me. His lips were so gentle, it barely felt like they touched mine.

            “I forgive you, just never do it again.” I smiled and kissed him. It was just a quick kiss but it left me a little dizzy.

            “Navia, I did say something though that I do not think you are aware of. You are not human.”

            “I know, my change into becoming a Myx.”

            “No Navia, you were never human. Though your powers did not show until later on you were born a Myx. Do you realize this?”