More than we seem (1D Louis/Harry)

5. Love, Hate, Betrayal

Omg yes! :) so tomorrow noon-ish?? xx

i knew i should be excited about this but at the moment i was finding it hard to be excited about anything. i casually typed back

Sounds good, c u then xx

I  let my phone fall to my lap then i looked towards the stairs, I wondered what Harry was saying to Niall, wondered if Harry was telling him what's been wrong for the past two days. I couldn't help but feel jealous, i know it's stupid but Harry tells me e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g. and he knows how much i hate secrets being kept from me. So why is he doing it?

Why is he doing this to me?

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Harry's POV

Niall's right.

I need to tell him.

Maybe he'll understand.....

and there i go again, what if he doesn't? what if he shuns me like those people at the mall?...

"What if he hates me?" a tear rolled down my face. Niall smiled at me assuringly "Haz, Lou would NEVER hate you, why are you even asking me?" Oh i dunno, maybe because i just punched him in the face and he didn't even accapt my apology. But i guess he was right again, i mean i could never hate Lou, Ever... he's my Boo bear, and i lo--

I shook myself out of my thoughts, as Niall gripped my shoulder encouragingly. "Don't worry Harry, he'll forgive you" He stood up and looked at me expectantly. "I'm just gonna stay here for a few minutes....y'know, just figuring out what to say" i said a bit nervously. He nodded "Take as long as you need" and then he smiled at me and left my room.

I fell back onto my bed with my arms cossed behind my head.

To be honest, i had no doubt he would forgive me. Even if i didn't deserve it. We always forgive eachother, i mean, we've never caused eachother phisical harm before, but this still shouldn't be any different.

But telling my best mate that i have....feelings... for him, that's a completely different question. For starters i have no idea how im gonna say it, do i just come right out with it, or is it better to break it to him slowly....

Hey Lou? guess what? I think i might be gay! or possibly bi, did i mention im infactuated with you?

Yeaah, that's not gonna work.

Oh god, what if it's not 'just Louis'?? what if i am gay? what if i turn into some kind of man whore who just runs around banging every guy who looks at me... Okay NOW i'm just being silly.... i hope. I closed my eyes tight, trying not to cry again. I didn't know this would be so hard. I opened my eyes and glanced to the side, the laptop was sitting on my bedside table. I rolled over to it, wiping my eyes as i sat up, pulling it onto my lap. I went onto Youtube and typed in 'Louis Tomlinson Look After You' I clicked on the first one and just sat back and listened. Somehow, even though he's the one im so nervous to talk to, his voice seemed to calm me down, i suddenly got this warm fuzzy feeling growing inside of me, just listening to his beautiful singing voice. A smile grew on my face, and before i knew it, i was singing along.

Oh, oh,
Be my baby
Ohhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you

There now, steady love, so few come and don't go
Will you won't you, be the one I'll always know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're the only one who knows, you slow it down

Oh, oh
Be my baby
Ohhhhhh
Oh, oh
Be my Baby
And I'll look after you
And I'll look after you...

If ever there was a doubt
My love she leans into me
This most assuredly counts
I said most assuredly

Oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you
After You
Oh, oh
Be my baby
And i'll look after you