I feared this would happen, yet I am relieved it did. I won't be taken for granted, my word is my word and my first words spoken will be my last. If I do not and cannot stay sturdy for myself I cannot stay sturdy for anyone else. What I say is as sturdy as I am. Having to have rebuilt many times I will not again because this foundation I stand on is impenetrable. At least to me it is and it has seen me this far in life and no matter how hard I try seeing it differently I know it is wrong. I am happy to know that through everything, there will be mercy for those who have corrupted themselves unwillingly because of a systematic failure which may or may not come in my lifetime.
I am not holding my breathe in order to wait for anything either, and I have to admit I do find it troublesome to even try breathe freely underwater. Whether I like the idea or not I will be going back even as far as the womb eventually and I am really not looking forward to receiving another round of punishment from the Earth because she fights with an even stronger armor than I or anyone of the inhabitants of this planet will ever comprehend and this is the reason I love her so much. It is because her love is also unconditional. No matter how hard humanity has fought against her law with the teachings of the Father she has always nurtured and loved her children and his also.
Yet it will be over shortly, this struggle between the Earth and Sky. Actually, it is over, it only going to take another fifty seven months to realize why, though I already showed you how before. Now that I completely disgusted and turned off all over again, still on account of those from the church. I welcome anyone here to dispute anything with me that I say but it will happen on my terms or not at all. I don't care what disputes anyone brings to me because I know what thought did and in terms that are explainable.
I asked for this and I received exactly what I asked for and now that the fruits of my labor have been stolen from me again I see it is still the same as they have been taken by the one who has actually given labor. It is the exact same story replayed and is no different. My own children were taken from me before they developed in the womb because of a fear that is replayed time and time again. It is realized now the fear was unfounded but it is also too late to do anything about it because I have put an end to the attributes and attitudes that caused it.
My life is now a harmony, a simple beautiful existence and I will never go hungry again. I didn't have to look at these struggles but I did, simply to understand my own. Now that I again do I promise to never leave you, until I shit the bed. I am still terrified in for you in ways you will never know but have already felt the effects of, yet I am helpless to do anything to resolve the issue at this time because there are oceans between us on either side and until I get an apology from where it matters at least I know I am going to be fat and happy. If I don't get it, I will still feed you again in time but it will be when it's realized that it is too late to nurture the dead.
Still I wish the very best in life to those who are living it and doing something productive with it that does not harm another living human being, yet to all those who oppose me I know where you stand to and you will be forgiven also I believe. In order to attain forgiveness you must first forgive yourself, then never do what you needed to be forgiven for in the first place again. Trust me when I say if you have not forgiven yourself or others for the things that you've done you have no right to be forgiving others or even telling them where to achieve forgiveness before death. Whether or not there is a next life or an afterlife does not matter to me because I will choose to be and do exactly what I have in this one in either of those too if I must to be crucified in all life times by dumbfounded believers to produce the same painful results they are used to.
