But Sean, baby... (JSE imagines)

25: Wings

It hurts.

I don't want to deal with the pain anymore.

As I lay here,

I close my eyes,

Awaiting the light of heaven to welcome me.

I am numb,

I feel nothing.

My ears are ringing.

The blood on my hands soaks into my skin.

I lay here, hopeless.

I long to feel 

The brush of an angel's wings.

Take me to paradise,

Take me home.

I knew my time was near,

The day I saw Sean's monitor flatline.

Somehow,  I knew.

I knew my time wasn't long after his. 

At the same time,

He'll get to see his precious baby.

The baby I hold inside,

For only five months.

Will I even see him?

I don't know.

My heart begins to throb,

Tears involuntarily streaming down my cheeks.

I don't feel them though.

Just the sting in my eyes.

I need him.

Where is he?

Sean, please!

I love you.

Envelop me in your loving arms,

And bring me and our daughter home.

The world begins to turn to fuzz.

Everything is blurry.

I am still alone.

I hear nothing.

I see nothing.

I feel nothing.

There it is...

The white light, pouring down from above.

Nothing,

But light.

I begin to feel warm.

Warmth from the light.

My consciousness calls out

Sean, where are you?

I have our baby!

Then,

A heavenly figure,

Floating down,

Towards me.

Dressed in white.

His fluffy green hair,

As visible as always.

His magnificent wings stretch out.

Then I see something holding his hand.

A little girl, just the same.

Then she calls to me,

Mommy!

I reach out to him,

Awaiting his touch.

Finally, I feel his arms around me.

I feel the warmth of his soul,

Radiating into mine.

Sean presses his forehead to mine,

He whispers.

I told you, 

Love is forever.

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