Cinderella Man

Cinderella Man Chapter 18

Well would you look at this speedy upload! I won't lie to you, I'm a little impressed by myself.

Luckily, this was an easy chapter for me to write, it all came naturally on this one... That's why the uploads so fast!

I can't promise that I'll be this speedy next time, but I can promise that I won't take as long as I have done in he past!

Well, like always I hope you enjoy this one, it kind of puts a smile on my face this chapter does.

Thank you so much for sticking with me, each and ever one of you are truly amazing and will have my love forever!

Enjoy guys

Emily's POV

My heart's running wild. I can both hear and feel its frantic beats, and I'm pretty sure Sam can too.

This is the guy I'm meant to spend the rest of my life with, he's the guy that should stand next to me through everything. I've never loved anyone as much as I love Sam.

So why do I have this feeling that this is only for tonight?

Why do I feel like he's about to stand up and walk away once again? I don't think I could take it if he did. I think that would be the final push my heart would need to break for good.

He stares at me, the look of love shining through them. My face looks the same.

I don't understand how someone with a look of such love shining from his eyes, could walk away and leave me. I don't understand how he can leave. I know that even if my mind was screaming at me that I wasn't good enough for him, my heart wouldn't let me leave. It would tell me that no matter what, nothing mattered more than the way we felt about each other.

I wish his heart would tell him the same.

"I love you Emily, I love you more than anything in this world. I want you to always remember that."

There's something final in his words that makes my heart stop. It sounds like he's leaving again.

"Please, I'm begging you, don't leave me again..." Any dignity that I once had disappears with this one request. I don't care if I sound needy or desperate, he needs to know how much I need him.

He looks so sad as I say this. His eyes fill with rare tears, tears that make mine start to fall.

I can feel it in my heart, I can already feel him leaving.

"Emily..." He whispers. He sounds so defeated, as if he's lost all will to fight anymore. I don't want him to stop fighting, I want him to fight for us until the end.

"Please..."

His lips are suddenly on mine again. The kiss is both desperate and loving, as if this is the final time he'll ever feel them.

With everything in me, I pray that this isn't the last time I feel his lips on mine. I pray for him to kiss me like this forever. I pray for him to hold onto me tight and promise me that he'll never let go.

That's not what he does.

He looks deeply into my eyes, as if he's trying to memorise them. I want to shout at him that he doesn't need to memorise them, that he could see them every day for the rest of his life if he wanted to.

But I keep quiet, and just like him, I try to memorise his eyes as well.

The deep brown that reminds me of dark melted chocolate. The way that they shine with all his emotions because he never seems to be able to hide any of them. The way that they look into mine with both love and longing.

"Goodbye Emily Smith..." He whispers before once again, he leaves me.

I watch his back as he walks away, I can't stop my feet from running straight after him.

Sam's POV

I shouldn't have done that.

I shouldn't have gone running back to Emily with open arms, knowing that I would have to walk away once again.

All I've managed to do is break us both once again, all I've achieved is to make me miss her more.

"Sam!" I hear screamed behind me, causing my heart to stop at the voice calling me.

I turn back round to see Emily running straight for me, before I feel her arms wrapped around my neck and her body pressed against mine.

I hold her in shock, loving being able to hold her in this way again.

For second, I stupidly let myself imagine what it would be like if I could hold her like this all the time. I let myself imagine what it would be like to have her as mine and I could love her freely without the worry of not being good enough.

It's a good imagine. Actually, it's the most beautiful image I've ever let myself have.

I hear her sigh in my ear and cling onto me tighter. I hug her back as tight as I can.

She pulls away slowly until she's looking at me and I can't help but smile at her. I smile widely, looking happier than I have in a seriously long time. She does the same.

"You don't get to call all the shots Sam," she states. I look at her confused as she continues to smile at me. "You don't get to just get up and leave thinking that you'll never see me again. It's not fair because I know I can't live without you in my life, even if you're just my friend. I need you Sam."

Her words shock me. Even if we can't be together, she still wants me in her life. I don't I know if I can do that. I don't know whether I could be with her and resist the temptation to kiss and hug her. I don't know if I could watch her marry someone and be happy for her.

"That's going to be difficult Emily, I find it extremely hard to resist you..." I say.

"And I Sam, find it extremely hard to resist you. But I would do it if it meant that I could be around you, if it meant that I could talk to you, if it meant that I could get to see you."

I can't help but grin at that.

"Okay, I like it... Friends?" I say stepping back and reaching my hand out for her to shake.

"Friends" she smiles, placing her hand in mine and shaking it once. She leaves her hand wrapped in mine after we shook them, stroking her fingers gently against mine.

I've missed the little things of being with her, something as simple as holding her hand.

Even if this will break my heart in the end, even if I will have to sit back and watch her marry another guy, I'll do it to see the smile that's radiating off her face now. I'll break my own heart to make her happy.

"So, should we say same time and place tomorrow then?" Emily asks, looking the happiest I've seen her in a while.

"You can count on it sweetheart," I smile before leaning in slowly and planting a small kiss on her cheek. She looks at me in shock once I've pulled away.

"What? Friends can kiss on the cheek," I grin before waving and walking away.

I hear her laugh behind me, and the sound is like a lost melody I'd forgotten the beauty of. There is no greater sound on this earth than the sound of Emily laughing.

I walk back to the new park that I'm calling home for now, feeling like I was high. I was high off of Emily. She was like the illegal drug that I needed to get me through the day, the one thing to make me feel like I was floating. And just like any other druggy, I was well and truly addicted.

I just hope this time I won't have to give her up.