i'm as bitter as an unripe fruit.
i hate with all of my being.
i hold anger like an enemy warrior brutally attacks his victim.
when i blow, i shut people out.
i didn't used to be this way.
i used to be as kind as the cool refreshing water you drink on a hot summer day.
i used to not let things get to me like an open bullet wound.
i used to be fair,
i used to treat people right.
i used to not hold grudges,
or want to entice the pain of a thousand stab wounds onto someone else.
but that was then,
and this is now.
i have faced too many changes,
just to 'be okay'.
and the worst part,
of this grueling change,
is i hate those around me.
i hate it when they're happy.
i hate it when they feel like everything is okay.
i hate watching them be carefree,
happy,
kind,
enjoyable,
exciting...
because i'm not.
and i don't know if i ever will be.
