Miss Cute | SugaMon

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I can't believe what just happened. It all happened so fast I couldn't- It's too unbelievable! Did we really just kissed?!?? Did he say he loved me?!?!? I must be imagining things and I'm literally screaming inside my head over the excitement. I have to do my own things so that I can somehow reach the dorm before Namjoon hyung but my legs don't move. I'm extremely shocked and I can't think straight.

I touch my lip remembering what it feels like to be kissed for real! He just stole my first kiss and it was the first time someone confessed to me. Woah even my cheeks are heating way too much! I start to walk aimlessly, just going anywhere for now. I cup my cheeks, smiling uncontrollably like a fool, then I start to chuckle and laugh by myself feeling so happy and I don't even know why. Does it mean I like Namjoon hyung?

My heart beats against my chest making it hard for me to breathe properly but it doesn't matter because I'm happy and i think I like Namjoon hyung romantically. I'm not even sure because I never loved someone before i was always alone and mistreated by everybody. Soon my soft chuckles of joy turned into bitter chuckles of sorrow when I remind my stupid self that Namjoon hyung doesn't love me...he loves Sara. The night get's darker as I walk and my tears start stinging my eyes and I start to cry alone in the night. I find a bench at a park and I release all my distress here where no one will see me. my eye vision gets blurrier and more tears roll down my cheeks probably messing all of my makeup.

I still hold the bag Namjoon gave me to open and I wonder what it is. He bought it for himself but...He gave it to me. I sniff and clear the tears away only to have new ones appear and I open the box of the jewelry. I feel my heart hurt with guilt and love when I see that it was the necklace I wanted. Why does he have to be so sweet? He is killing me with so much kindness it will hurt so much when I he finds out Sara doesn't exist! This makes me more than ever want to protect my secret but it has got to end. I have to tell Namjoon the truth...

" Sara doesn't exist." I mumble to myself standing up from the bench before drying my tears. I walk a bit more my feet killing me from all that walking and my spine is aching. I stand at the edge of the sidewalk and I signal for a taxi.

When one stops by I enter and give him Pep's address. He drives while creating random conversation that I would so often hum.

" Say, you are really pretty miss." He says eyeing me from his eye mirror ( is that how you call it? XD) I lower my skirt that showed a bit of my leg and I clear my throat before staring at the window. I feel uncomfortable and I need to go back to my original clothes. This man is a taxi driver he wouldn't do anything to me right?

He stops the car right in front if pep's apartment and I pay him the money before getting off again.

" You should call me sometime, pretty girl."The driver winks at me before driving off again. I roll my eyes in disgust and I go inside the apartment to get the rest of the suitcases plus removing all this makeup and the girl stuff before taking yet another taxi. After I do all of that stuff I take the chance to put on the necklace and hide the diamond part under my shirt.

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I get off of the car right away. No man stared or talked to me weirdly because I wasn't cross dressing. I feel so much better and relieved when I'm my usual self. I drag the suitcase across the sidewalk almost reaching my dorm. Each step closer only made me feel awful, I didn't want to face Namjoon. I know he is not gonna feel shy or act weird around me because he believes it was Sara whom he k-kissed and not me! but it was me! Aish Sometimes it is so confusing but the main point is....He kissed me and now I feel different. I can't go on like this I have to tell him sooner or later because eventually he will find out my secret.