Roommates

28. Keep Your Word

Previously...
"Rach? What's wrong?" She won't look at me. I stand up and lean over her, and then she does. She's really crying now. I wipe away her tears with my fingers.
"Finn I--"
"I know, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have lied to you."
She shakes her head frantically. "No. No it's not that."
"What is it?" I ask. I'm scared now. I take her hand. "Rach, you can talk to me."
She takes a deep breath and looks at me.
"I'm pregnant."

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Finn's POV
I feel like my heart has stopped. A baby? My baby?
"Please say something." Rachel bites her lip nervously, but I'm stunned and no words will come out. "Finn."
"Mine?" I ask finally.
"Yes, it's yours. Of course it is."
I can feel my heartbeat like its jumping out of my chest. I'm going to be a dad. I take a long deep breath before I speak again. "How do you know?"
"The tests the doctor brought back. They could tell from them. I'm so sorry." She clasps her hand over her mouth and cries. I lean over her and hug her gently, being careful because of her bruising, and she leans into my arms. "I don't know what to do."
"Hey, it's ok. Don't be sorry, we're both responsible." I rub her back gently. "When.. When did it even happen?"
"You remember the night after we went out? When Natasha moved here?" I think about that night, how we were so caught up in each other.
"Oh my god Rach. I'm so sorry, I-I didn't even think--"
"It's okay." She sniffs. "I just wanted to tell you. I can't do this by myself."
"You don't have to. I'm here. Remember what I said: I'll stand by you through anything."
"Finn, I know you said that but this is a big thing. I don't expect--"
"I meant it, Rach. I'm keeping my word. I'm standing by you."
"Even through this?"
"Especially through this."
She smiles through her tears. "Oh god Finn, everything is such a mess."
"It's a mess we can get through together." I kiss her head gently.
"Can you get Santana? I wanted to tell her too."
"Yeah, sure. I'll be back in a minute." She sits back up slowly and I walk out of the door. I see Santana still sitting on the seats. She sees me and stands up, smiling.
"Well you took your time. Is it my turn now?" Then she sees my worried expression and hers changes too. "What's happened?"
"You need to see her. She's..."
"Finn? What's up?"
I sigh. The words won't come out. "Just come in."
Me and Santana walk back in together, and Rachel smiles slightly when she sees her. "Hey San."
"Hey, how are you feeling?" They hug gently, Santana being careful of Rachel's cast on her left arm.
"You should probably sit down." Rachel laughs slightly. I sit down next to Santana.
"Come on then, spill." Santana teases. Rachel takes a deep breath.
"I'm pregnant, Santana. It's Finn's."
Santana sits silent for a few seconds, her mouth almost hanging open. "Wha- When?"
"A couple of weeks ago, I guess."
"Oh god, that's why you were throwing up then." She sighs.
"Yeah, that would explain it."
"What are you going to do with it?" Santana asks, and I hang my head down. I see Rachel look at me and she sighs.
"I honestly don't know."
"But Rach, you're in college. I mean, can you really raise a baby?"
"I'm well aware of that, thanks San." Rachel snaps. "Sorry. I just--"
"It's okay. I'm sorry." They hold hands. "Whatever you choose, I'll help you. Finn's here too, right Finn?"
She looks at me and I raise my head and force a smile. "Yeah, of course." I reply bluntly, my mind still trying to process everything that's just happened.
Rachel smiles at us both. "Thank you."
"Well I wasn't expecting to hear this as soon as you wake up." Santana laughs. "Seriously, that's a shocker."
Rachel shrugs. "I've just come back into the world and now suddenly there's someone else with me."
I'm deep in thought when suddenly I lift my head up with worry. "Wait, is the baby okay after the accident?" Santana looks at me and then to Rachel. Rachel frowns.
"I don't know, the doctor didn't say anything like that. Just that I'm withchild."
"Maybe they can't tell yet." Santana suggests. "I mean, you're only in like the first couple of weeks right now Rach."
"Yeah I suppose so."
I stand up quickly. "We should find out. I'll go ask someone."

Rachel's POV
Finn seems totally freaked out. I mean, of course he is. I've just told him out of the blue that I'm going to have his baby. When the doctor came in and told me, I thought he must have made a mistake and it's another patient's test, but my name was on the label and everything. I still can't get my head around it myself. Finn stands up so quickly, like he's completely panicked.
Santana stands up too."Finn, calm down. I'm sure the baby's fine."
"No, no we have to make sure."
"Finn." I say softly, and he looks at me sadly. "Come here." I hold out the arm I can use and he walks over to me and sits on the bed beside me, leans into my arms, and he starts crying.
"I'm so sorry. This is all my fault. I should have got something." He cries and I feel my eyes becoming misty too, but I try to hold it back to comfort Finn.
"It's not your fault, we're both in this together. I'm going to be fine, the baby's going to be fine, and so are you." I look over at Santana, her eyes full of sympathy.
Give us a minute I mouth at her as I hold Finn close, and she nods and leaves the room.
"Finn, look at me." I tell him, lifting up his head. He looks so broken.
"I know this is a complete change for both of us, but we can get through this. Whatever the outcome, I need you to be strong and I need to be too. For our baby." He nods at me and I kiss him gently.
"Are you gonna go through with it?" He asks me.
I honestly have no idea I want to say. "Well, what do you want to do about this? You have a say too you know."
He shrugs. "I don't know. I mean, I do want a baby with you. A family. I just didn't expect to start it this soon."
"Neither of us did." I try to comfort him.
"Well I guess we have two options: stop the pregnancy, or adoption. We can't exactly raise a baby, Rach. It's not fair for him or her." His voice breaks as he talks. I know in his heart he wants this baby, I can tell. He's being so selfless. What have I done to deserve him?
"Well I still have a long way to go with this, so I guess we can think about it for a while." I smile at him and he nods.

Suddenly Santana comes back into the room. "Guys, there's news on Natasha finally." I sit myself up straighter to listen, and Finn turns his head quickly. "She's stable, and she's sort of half awake. They've put some sort of drug in her cause she was aggressive when she woke up, yelling and stuff. Not surprising. But it's so her blood pressure and stress levels don't rise too much or she'll be unstable again."
"Can I see her?" I ask quietly, looking at Finn.
"I don't know if that's a good idea, Rach. At least not now. We don't know how good you are on your feet yet. The doctor said there's swelling in your legs."
"That'll probably go down in a couple of days." I point out.
"No way Rachel. I don't want her seeing you, she's done this to you." Santana raises her voice slightly at me.
"Well I'm going to see her at some point, aren't I? And I'd rather it be before we go back to school."
Santana sighs. "I don't know. Anyway, what are you going to tell her about the baby? She's going to flip when she finds out you guys are having one."
"Crap, I didn't think about that." Finn puts his head in his hands.
"She can stuff herself. Finn's not her boyfriend, so it's not really her place to judge." I frown. Santana smiles at me.
"There's the feisty Rachel I know." We both laugh, and Finn holds my hand and smiles at me. "Hey Finn, you fancy another coffee?"
"Yeah I wouldn't mind one." Finn answers.
"Me too, please." I say.
"Uh, no way lady. You're strictly on water right now." I grunt and roll my eyes, and Finn smiles.
"I won't have any if she can't, San. Thanks though."
"No, Finn you're not going to make me jealous by having a coffee. Just have one. You've been here a while, haven't you?" He nods and I smile. "Well then."
Santana leaves the room again to go and buy the drinks, and Finn stays sat beside to me on the bed holding my hand. Since Santana's gone, I decide to bring up the topic of seeing Natasha again.
"You know, I do need to see Natasha. I need to talk to her about what happened."
"I understand that, Rach, I do. I just don't want her attacking you or causing you any stress."
"Finn, if I don't talk to her she'll go back to school claiming that I shoved her into the road. I just want to make sure she's clear on what happened. I mean, I wasn't when I woke up. If I don't tell her any different she'll think the same."
Finn sighs and nods. "But if she starts arguing with you leave the room. You know stress isn't good for--"
"The baby?" I raise my eyebrows, and he looks down. "Finn please stop worrying. The baby's going to be fine."
He nods and kisses my forehead gently. "I love you."
"I love you too." I smile.