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*WARNING: CONTAINS POSSIBLY TRIGGERING SUBJECTS*

Penelope's POV
We spend the whole day prating around at Thorpe park and realise I haven't truly had fun for years. My idea of 'fun' now a days is smoking, drinking, doing drugs and getting into trouble. I have a quick phone conversation with Holly until she has to go out for a family meal. I go and sit outside to have a cigarette as I haven't even thought about having one all day. Simon comes out after a few minutes and sits down next to me.
"Have fun today?" He asks looking up at the stars.
"Yes, thank you." I say blowing the smoke out my mouth. "Want one?" I offer pointing at the half smoked cigarette in between my fingers.
"Nah, never had one before." He replies.
"Never?" I ask in disbelief. He just shakes his head. "Wanna try?" I ask.
"Why not." He shrugs. "How do I do it?"
"Just suck, breathe in then breathe out after a few seconds." I explain putting the end up to his mouth. He does exactly what I say and ends up having a coughing fit which makes me laugh.
"I hate that." He laughs. "I don't understand how you can do that."
"I don't know, just takes everything away for a bit yanno?" I say and he just nods.
"So tell me about your girlfriend."
"Well, her name is Holly, she's a bit of a bitch but I love her anyway. She's the most beautiful person I've ever laid eyes on,I couldn't imagine a more perfect person. We do argue quite a bit but that's normal. Even just thinking about her makes my heart melt, I haven't seen her for like a week and I already miss her." I say.
"She sounds great, and I'm sure none of us would mind if you had her over, you live here now you can invite whoever round." He smiles at me. "Anyway, it's cold wanna head inside and I'll crush you at FIFA?" He asks standing up from the wall we are sat on.
"Is that a challenge Simon Minter?" I ask jumping down as I'm a lot shorter than him so my legs were dangling like a six year old in a car.
"I suppose it is."
"Challenge accepted." I say following him into the house.

I get changed into some more comfy clothes and sit down with Simon to play him at FIFA. He ends up winning by 1 goal.
"Fuck sake." I say putting my controller beside me.
"Poor Penelope." Simon says laughing.

I end up skyping Holly at around 1am but it turns into an argument.
"For fucks sake Holly, I was out. Having fun, how was I supposed to text you? I didn't want to look like the unsociable asshole." I say starting to get really annoyed.
"But I'm your fucking girlfriend, you can't just ignore me." She whisper shouts as everyone in her house is asleep.
"We can't talk 24/7 Holly. We'll get sick of each other."
"Are you that fucking useless that you can't text to tell me you're busy? Fuck you Penelope Bradley." She says and hangs up. I feel a single tear run down my cheek as I'm left to stare at our Skype conversation. She makes me feel so shit.

Simon's  POV
I'm just about to go to bed but I spot Penelope sat out on the grass with a bottle of vodka in one hand and a joint in the other.
"Penny?" I say opening the outside doors. She turns around and I can just see how cold she is as she only has a vest and shorts on. She quickly wipes her eyes and takes a drag from her spliff. "Hey, talk to me. What's up." I sit next to her wrapping my SDMN hoodie around her shoulders.
"She makes me feel so fucking shit." She says then breaks down crying leaning into my chest. I just hold her in hopes of making her feel better.
"In what way?" I ask quietly.
"She just picks a fight over everything Simon. She was like 'are you that useless that you can't even text me to say you're busy." She quotes taking another sip of vodka. "But it's constant Simon."
"No person should call their partner useless. She's in the wrong here, not you. You want me to get Josh to talk to her?" She just shakes her head and takes another drag. That's when I see them. "Penelope." I say sympathetically. She quickly clocks on I've noticed and slips her arms into the hoodie and puts her wrist into her lap looking away from me. "Penny, it's okay. Just let me see." I say and she gives in moving her arm onto my knee. I pull up the sleeve to reveal a series of straight cuts going up her arm. "They're fresh aren't they?" I ask and she nods. I run my thumb over them and then cover them again.
"Don't tell Josh." She says weakly.
"I won't don't worry, just please don't do it again Penelope."

Penelope's POV
'He's found them, well fucking done Penelope.'
'She's right, you are useless.'
'He doesn't care about you Penelope'
The voices say in my head. I get voices often.