Through The Dark {Niall Horan}

Ch. 3 - Distant

-Niall's POV-

It's been a week since that night. The tour is officially over now.

I'm just so messed up. Even more than before. I haven't had a decent meal since then, and I've been cutting everyday.

I think the boys are getting suspicious. I need to work on my acting, or else they might see through my lies and then I'll be fucked.

"Niall!!" Zayn hollared.

"Oh, what?"

"You spacing out there buddy?" He laughed.

"Yeah," I laughed a little. "Sorry."

"It's cool mate." He assured. "So, are you excited for your date this saturday with that Kayla chick?"

"Mhmm."

"You don't sound excited."

"I'm just nervous is all."

"Don't be, everything will be fine. Just be yourself." Zayn smiled.

"I'll be sure to keep that in mind." I smiled back, but frowned inside. If I was to be myself, she would run away at the first chance she could get.

No one will ever like a freak like me.

Especially Louis...

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We were at our house that we all stayed together in, from time to time, when we weren't on the road or at out own seperate homes. Not including our parents houses.

I was day dreaming, when suddenly my phone starting going off. I was getting a call.

I didn't recognize the number, but answered it anyway.

"Ello?"

"Hey, is this Niall?"

"Yeah.."

"It's Kayla."

"Oh, hey." I sounded nervous.

"You okay?"

"Yeah, m'fine. So whats up?"

"Oh, I was just wondering where we're going for our date on saturday."

"Oh, um- where do you wanna go?" I ask her.

"It doesn't matter," She says. "Hm, how about dinner?"

No.

"Sure. Sounds great."

Shit.

"Great! Do you want me to look up a place and then send you the info?"

"Sounds like a plan."

"Okay, see you then, Niall."

"You too Kayla."

I hang up and let out a deep sigh. I was in my room at the moment.

I think a lot when I'm alone. Even around the lads and other people, but when I'm alone, the thoughts are more heavy than usual.

They're more powerful. I don't know why, they just are. I feel alone, like no one can save me. Well I have one person in mind, but it's impossible for him to ever love me more than a friend.

Even if he did end up being gay, or bisexual, he would be with Harry no doubt. Everyone shipped 'Larry'. No one cares about me and my feelings.

I guess there is nothing special about me and Louis relationship. Maybe that's why I'm so broken and hopeless. Because I know that me and him will never be anything more than band mates, friends, and brother's.