Struggles of a Fangirl

Struggle #46

 "Me too," She replies in a soft voice, crossing her legs. "It's been fun. You know I almost didn't come here." I give her a face that reads 'wtf'. Who would pass up on a chance to hang out with MB and get away from home. Yannie laughs at my expression, "I didn't think I was cut out to hang with Mindless Behavior the whole summer. I'm not scared of TM but I didn't want to be the target of all their mean jokes and stuff. I'm surprised no twitter drama has spread about any of us."

 "Just wait until the video gets released." I tell her, already picturing the comments rolling in about the video. "There's gonna be hella rumors and drama swirling about us."

 Joya and Renee walk over to us, going to their towels too. "Drama about what?" Renee asks, laying down on her stomach. Joya leans back on her elbows, the sun shines her eyes making them look like a very light brown.

 "Us when the video comes out. Just like what happened to Justice," Yannie responds, shaking her head like she's ashamed.

 Renee rolls her eyes, "Do they really still do that? If they do that then they're petty as hell because they know damn well if they were in our shoes they would not want any negative controversy around them." We all nod in agreement to her statement. I look over at the boys who are posing with fans near the shore. A little girl is crying hard because Roc just gave her a hug, her mother is taking pictures of the moment, knowing the little girl is going to stare at them for a long time afterwards.

 "So," I move my glance to Joya who's putting on her sunglasses. "Have you and Jacob decided what you're gonna do when the tour is over?"

 "Yeah, we're gonna see how long we can last. We considered breaking up but that option just made both of us kind of depressed. So we're gonna see if we can handle the long distance type of relationship." She tells us, a smile clear on her face. Even though I can't see behind her shades, I know her eyes are twinkling with happiness. It's obvious by the way she's practically glowing right now.

 "Oh I forgot to tell you guys something..." Yannie whipsers in a low voice. Our gazes bore into her and she shifts nervously, a smile playing on her lips. "Ray and I....kind of....kissed."

 "WHAT!?" I screech, she winces and clamps a hand over my mouth. I try to talk but her hold is too strong. She laughs as everyone stares at her, our eyes as big as saucers. Yannie covers her face sheepishly and peeks at us between her fingers, "It happened a couple days ago at the house we filmed at. Ray was showing me how to play some game on the play station. He was beating me and we started play fighting and boom...we kissed."

 Joya slaps her arm playfully, "And you didn't tell us!?" She exclaims. Yannie shakes her head no, laughing as Joya narrows her eyes. She looks around at all of us, "Well what else are yall hiding?"

 A nervous sweat breaks out on my back. I hope I don't look suspicious. A part of me wants to tell the girls who I kissed...but then I'd be labeled as a skank even though it wasn't my fault.

 Renee clears her throat gently, "Well..." We all stare at her intently and she nervously fiddles with the corner of her towel. "Me and Roc kissed last night. We kinda went for a midnight swim in the hotel and he kissed me in the elevator...romantic right?"

 "Oh damn, yall all got hot lips!" Joya says laughing, we join in and then the question that I was hoping to avoid, comes up. Joya's eyes shift to me and she smiles slyly, the others follow her gaze, quirking their eyebrows at me. "Who have you kissed Mrs. Miller? Was it Prodigy."

 My stomach drops to my butt. "What makes you think we kissed?"

 "Cuz yall have gotten mighty close pretty quickly and everyone knows he likes you. The boy practically caters to you when you're at your weakest." Renee points out.