MONTGOMERY 3 : If Only

Chapter 22

It's done

"Simon.." I breathed.

Huminga ako ng malalim at mariing pumikit sandali. I don't even know what to say.

My breathing is unsteady.

"You know what's the best music for me?" Banayad niyang tanong.

He slightly brushed his hands on my cheeks. I felt my heart leap because of that. Para akong maiihi sa sobrang emosyon na dumadaloy sa akin. Naninikip ang puso ko dahil sa sobrang pagpipigil na lumabas ang kasiyahan sa akin.

"What?" Pigil hininga kong tanong.

"Hearing my name from you."

Walang kwenta ang aking ginawang pag pipigil. Bumigay pa din ang puso ko.

Nag-angat ako ng tingin para magtama ang mga mata namin. His eyes were glowing and it made me so weak. His lips formed a smile and I can't help but smile too. Kahit mahirap ay nagawa kong ngumiti dahil sa ngiti niya.

This is so damn wrong but I love it.

I.. just..

Pumatak ang luha na kanina pa nagbabadya sa aking mga mata. Mabilis akong napapikit para mapigilan ang pag-agos ng aking mga luha.

I felt him embraced me more..

From the loud music, I can only hear my heart beat. From the fast movement of the lights, it's him who I can only see.

"Why are you crying?"

Umiling ako. "Nothing.."

It hurts, it hurts because I can't even say why I am crying. Everything is prohibited, the mere fact of feeling something is prohibited.

How can I apply the Montgomery's tag line..

When love comes in, there are no factors, no inhibitions. You just love and conquer.

How can I apply it if I am in a situation like this? How can I even think of using that tag line when in fact, the moment I try using it will be the time I would violate everything and violating everything means destroying my family.

The family that I love..

The family that I ought to preserve.

"Don't cry please.." bulong niya.

He placed his forehead on mine. I opened my eyes and bit my lower lip to stop myself from crying. I shook my head as an answer. Hindi ko man maibuka ang bibig ko para magsalita.

"I am sorry.." bulong ko.

"No.. no.."

He shook his head.

"I don't want to hear that word from you.." he traced.

"I don't want you to regret things thay concerns me." Dagdag niya.

Marahan akong tumango. He's to close, pakiramdam ko sasabog ako sa sobrang lapit niya. I want to think properly but inhaling his scent will make me go insane.

It's not helping me.

"Putang ina! Bumitaw nga kayo sa isa't isa!"

I flinched when I heard the angry voice of Uno. Napalingon kami sakanya at nakita kong palapit siya sa amin. Siya mismo ang humila sa akin mula kay Simon. He placed me behind him and I can't help but look back at Simon.

Kita ko ang galit sakanyang mga mata. Nagtagis ang kanyang mga bagang. I tried losing Uno's grip but he tightened it more.

"Uno!" Matigas na tawag niya kay Uno.