Before He Cheats

Chapter 4: Permission

I was done on those household chores including cooking his meal. Alam kong pag nagising iyon at walang pagkain, magagalit na naman siya. Pag ganitong nauumagahan siyang umuwi at natutulog na ay siguradong mga lapas hapon pa itong gumigising. 

I sat beside him, the place where he is silently sleeping. I touched his face and combed his hair using the fingers of my right hand. I missed doing this. Ito ang palagi kong ginagawa sa kanya whenever he wanted to sleep and even asked me to do this to him. Nakamiss rin alalahanin ang mga bagay na ginagawa namin noon. 

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"I love your cook, really." he nodded to make me like he's satisfied and yeah, I know he will love it cause honestly, makakain rin naman kasi ang lahat ng niluluto ko eh. But what he doesn't know about the food in front of him - a secret piece of mine. 

"Thanks for the good dinner Gev, You just made me love you more." he kissed my hand and smiled at me. "You are worth fighting for." 

Ibinalik ko ang aking tingin sa kanyang mahimbing na pagkakatulog. Hinagod ko ang kanyang buhok ulit at maluha-luhang inaalala ang lahat-lahat ng mga masasayang bagay na nabuo naming dalawa. From the way we started meeting, the pretender and the user, the quarrels and the make-ups, jealousies and more. 

"What the fuck are you doing Mr. Fortejo?" mahigpit niyang hawak sa akin na agad kong ipinkawala at tinanggal dahil baon na baon ang kanyang mga kuko sa braso ko at hindi ba niya alam na masakit iyon?

He stood up and never smiled. "Making yourself free?" he walked to the  parking car and  later I found out that his car was parked there. He opened the passenger's seat. "Get in" 

I was really shockingly made this face of mine. "OMG, why should I have to?" I walked back at tinalukaran siya sa mga nababaliw niyang pagpapasunod sa akin. 

Mabilis niya akong nahabal and then luckily on his side, gripped my wrist. "Fuck, is this how the way you treat the one who saves you from your long-lost enemy and now found?" 

"Did I tell you to save me?"  sarkastikong tanong ko sa kanya. 

Kinaladkad niya ako pabalik dahilan ng aking pagsigaw. I never hesitate to do so, I don't like him doing this to me. I can see the people stares and their awareness. 

"Please don't make scandal here lady." 

"Just let me go." 

But still he wins. 

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I am still combing his hair with my hand. I still wanted to be like this even if it takes forever dahil ito ang tanging paraan para maglambing ako sa kanya dahil kapag gising siya hinding-hindi ko ito magagawa sa kanya dahil kundi away ay aalis siya at tatalikuran. 

You may change a lot, deepen the hatred you have for me Miguel, still and still I will always be here, never leave you and never gonna made you feel that I am losing and fading my love for you. I will never make you gonna feel that I change and follow the treatment you have on me now, cause I am your wife Miguel. 

I am always be your wife. 

"What are you doing?" labis akong napabalikwas sa kama dahil sa biglang pagmulat niya ng kanyang mata. Akala ko ay hindi siya makakaramdam ng paghagod ko sa kanya. 

"Just, nothing. Just sitting beside you and combing your hair." I answered na halos ay di magkaundugaga dahil baka magalit na naman siya. 

He rolled his eyes and flipped back. "I am not a kid anymore Geneva, let me sleep alone." he hugged this pillow beside him and went to sleep again. 

I just stared at him consciously with his cute reasons. 

But then suddenly, I heard my phone rings. I directly grabbed my phone from the corner dahil magalit at maingayan siya dahil dito. It's Zach again. I walked out to the room and there I answered the call. 

"Hey?" mahina kong sagot sa kanya. 

"Hey Gev. I miss you. When can I see you ba?" malakas at masiglang bati niya sa akin. Yeah, I miss her too that much. Noong huling tumawag ito ay birthday ni Mike at tinanggihan ko na nga ito because I don't want Miguel coming home at wala ako sa presensiya ng bahay. 

"I don't know. I am so busy here, sorry." I heard her sighed and obviously, nalulungkot na naman ito dahil sa pagtanggi ko sa kanya. "Wait, I'll ask him permission first." 

"Sige. Sige, I'll be waiting okay. Give me a call." then she ended the call. 

I was about to turned about when I saw him standing in front of the door with this mad face of him. Patay narinig na naman siguro ako nito at heto siya ngayon galit na galit na naman. 

"Ahh, I was just about .. about to ask you. Zach called and she wanted me to go to her house, can I ?" I said and told him everything. 

He shook his head. "Nope. Walang aalis." 

"But Miguel, I just want to see Zach." I insisted. Sakto na naman ako na magagalit na naman siya. 

Hindi niya ako sinagot kundi isang mabilis na paghawak niya sa aking pisngi at matalim na kuko sa aking pisngi mula sa kanya ay napasinghap ako dahil sa ginagawa niya. Ang sakit ng kuko at ang pagkagalit niya ang nagpahikbi na naman sa akin. 

Nang hindi pa siya nakontento ay nahawakan niya ang aking pasa sa may balikat dahilan ng aking pagdaing at pagsusumamo sa akin. 

"Tama na Miguel." I begged in tears. 

"Pag sabi kong walang aalis, wala diba?" his anger mostly eaten me, turned me into pieces at dahil sa takot ko ay hindi ko na siya matingnan ng diretso. "Naiintindihan mo Geneva?" 

I nodded in pain. "Yeah. I do." 

He lost his gripped into mine and sighed in a moment. Alam kong kinakalma niya ang sarili. Lumakad siyang papuntang kwarto. I saw him how he took off his clothes and under. His face was into this affection again that I could see how his erected and then ay saglit na tumingin sa akin. 

"Get inside." he commanded.