Bruised Hearts

Chapter 14

Jacob's P.O.V 

Dan play slammed Nick into the locker beside my head as they wrestled, making me jump out of my skin slightly. I picked up my chemistry book before closing the door promptly. 

"Guys you're going to get us in trouble, Mrs. Motet had us clean the basements bathroom last time." I pleaded, those toilets were disgusting, even for a guy. I didn't want to get in trouble again. 

"Jake, lighten up a little bit, stop acting like a little fag." I mentally cringed at his choice of words, as much as I loved Dan, he was a homophobic prick that never failed to display his hate for people like me. People like me, it sounds almost too weird. I flipped him off before we started walking towards the main corridor. Nick was goofing off, as usual, his ability to make me smile and to lighten up the mood always astonished me. Dan had his hands shoved far in his pocket, but quickly pulled them out only to have balled fists pressed to his sides. I lifted my gaze to see his face scrunched up and his being come to a halt. I stopped as well before I followed his gaze to something I wish I didn't have to see. Ethan faced Connor, straddling him, his small hands were laced up tightly in Connor's brown hair and their lips were glued to each-other. My gaze was glued to them, my heart wrenching in pain. 

"Ew, Look at those two fags!" Dan shouted at the two boys. My eyes widened and my head snapped to Dan before quickly looking back at Ethan and Connor. Their lips quickly parted, looking our way. I couldn't help but look at Ethan, hurt quickly taking over my body. I felt tears prickle my eyes, forcing myself to keep them in. 

"Go fuck yourself Dan!" Ethan's caramel voice shouted, venom in his tone. He scanned our group before our eyes locked, I saw a flash of guilt and regret in his eyes before his attention returned to Connor, exchanging quiet messages. Dan scoffed and walked past them as I trailed quickly behind them, adverting my gaze. I could see Nick look at me from the corner of his eye, concern on his face, his red fringe covering his forehead. I could hear in the distance Ethan's giggle followed by a faint noise that only two people kissing could make. I looked down, tears brimming my eyes, this time overflowing, quickly streaming down my face. I turned the corner and excused myself to the guys walking fast to the bathroom getting into a stall. I slammed the door shut and pressed my forehead to the door, streams of tears coming down my face. I sat on the closed seat of the toilet, my face in my hands, quiet sobs escaping my mouth. Usually this wouldn't have bothered me, but this wasn't just anything. It also wasn't just about them, I guess my conscience finally caught up to me. I was tired of hiding who I was, tired of fighting this instinct, this urge inside of me that every moment people around me remind me how disgusting and filthy it is.  I don't want to feel filthy or disgusting, I just want to love and be loved. 

I guess all of the stress I have been feeling is the reason why it pushed me off the edge, the reason why I'm so hurt. I've seen them kiss plenty of times. Maybe it's because I knew how it felt to have Ethan in my arms, his tiny frame pressed against my chest. When I hold him I don't feel disgusting, I feel alive. I heard a soft knock on the stall door. 

"Jakie? It's Nick, open up..." His voice was sweet and calm but filled with worry. I sniffled and wiped the newer tears that were  rolling down my cheeks and reached forward to unlock the door. He came in and locked the door behind him, crouching to get to m level. I looked into his big hazelnut eyes and clenched my fists.

"I'm sick of being different, tired of cowering in the corner." My voice cracked, my face was most likely a mess, red puffy eyes, clogged up nose and wet tears stains on my cheeks, not a pretty sight. He shook his head and looked down.  "I just want to be loved..." I added half halfheartedly. 

"I know, I know..." He looked up and stared into my eyes, his hands slowly reaching up for my face and wiping my tears away, softly running his thumb across my cheek. My eyes were locked with his now, noticing how deep and beautiful they were. The forest green crept up and meshed with the chocolate brown creating breathtaking eyes. I munched on my inner lip, Nick was really attractive, no wonder he was so popular with the girls, I never even noticed, I mean I knew he was good looking but I never noticed how everything about his was close to perfection. My mind was always so focused on Ethan, sure Nick was straight so it would never happen but doesn't mean I would mind and he has the most amazing red, plump kissable lips of all. His face was really close, which caused a blush to creep onto my face. I looked down and he nudged me with his forehead, causing me to look back up. His eyes were closed which only caused me to look somewhere else, landing on his lips again. I sucked in my bottom lip and bit it gently, you just got crushed, why are you thinking about kissing your best friend, get a hold of yourself Jacob. He was still stroking my cheeks softly even though I had stopped crying a while ago. He opened his eyes and slowly pulled my face closer than it already was, he was now biting his lip, I would be lying if it didn't dive me insane, our faces only a small inch apart. He was straight right, why would he be this close?

"I hate him, he's hurting you..." his nose rubbed against mine gently, our eyes on each other's lips "I know how you feel though." before I could let out a word out his soft lips were pressed to mine. I was in shock, taking a few seconds before kissing back, tingles running down my body to the tips of my fingers. My wide open eyes slowly closed letting my instincts take over, my arms wrapping around his neck, pulling him closer to me. He got up on his feet, bending down not to break the kiss causing me to get up. His arms slithered around my waist, turning my back towards the stall wall and ramming me rather roughly against it making me gasp. He took the opportunity to slip his tongue in, capturing my tongue with his. My entire body felt numb, euphoric, ecstatic, I wanted more. I had never felt this, not even with Ethan. He bit my lower lip making me moan followed by my uncontrollable blush. his leg pressed in-between mine, causing another moan to escape my lips. He quickly pulled away and moved backwards till his back came in contact with the other side, both of our heavy breathing filling the quiet bathroom. I brought my hand to my lips, a pulsating sensation coming from them. What was this. 

"I'm sorry, I didn't want to take advantage of your vulnerability." He said quietly, still breathing a bit heavily. "I know how you're feeling because I love you Jake." His eyes were glued to mine, a blush creeping on his cheeks. I felt my heart beat increase and the blood pump up to my cheeks. Nick loved me?

A/N: 

Picture above is Dan

So yeah,  That happened. 

This will be the last Jacob P.O.V though, and I'm planning another book already so.. yeah stay tuned for that. Don't forget to vote and comment, your opinion means a lot <3