All We Need Of Hell (Lynn Gunn)

This Is Just A War In My Head | Chapter 2

"Mom!" I called out as I walked through our front door. I took my jacket off and hung it up and frowned. Usually my mom calls back and asks how my day was. I walked into the kitchen and found her staring blankly at the wall. She had my lyric book placed beside her. I froze in my spot. "M-mom?" I said nervous about what she was going say to me next.

"Is this how you feel? Why would you feel like this?" She questioned moving my book away from her. "Mom there just lyrics." I said trying to reason with her. I had a few songs written down from a band I was in before we moved. "Lynn, you'll tell me when something's bothering you though right?" She asked. "Of course." I spoke and slowly grabbed my book away. I gave her a smile and rushed into my room.

God damn mom. I thought looking around my room for yet another secret hiding place I could put it in. My eyes caught sight of the little space underneath my bookshelf. I slid it under and sighed. I fell back on my bed and immediately got back up to grab a ponytail and put my hair up.

"Lynn! You got a friend at the door!" I heard my dad shout from downstairs. Friend? I don't have any? I thought as I stood up. I walked back downstairs and saw Sam standing there with Jenna. I gave them a awkward a smile. "Uh-" I was about to speak when Sam cut me off. "I might've seen you walk home. I kinda live down the block." She said pointing down the row of houses. I looked at Jenna. "I was called over. I actually live 5 minutes away." She spoke smiling at me.

I nodded back and we kinda just stood there for awhile. "Uh, do you guys wanna visit?" I asked they looked at each other and nodded. "Closets there for your jackets." I said pointing at where mine was. They took theirs off and followed me up the stairs. I pointed out to them which room the bathroom was also.

We walked in my room and I sat on my bed and watched them amusingly be awkward. It looked like they were taking my room in, it had grey walls. I had black dressers and bed frame. My sheets and blankets were deep purple. I had little things around my room like a Harry Potter Funko and my guitar. I also had posters up. I had a John Lennon one and a black light poster of the Cheshire Cat.

"Do you guys wanna watch a movie maybe? We can watch Skins Uk on Netflix?" I spoke up patting the spot beside me for them to sit down. "What's Skins Uk?" Sam spoke up. My eyes widened. "Your in for a new addiction." I said.

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We were done two episode when Sam spoke up. "Um, thank you for watch you did to my sister today at lunch." Sister? But i did that to- ohh. "Alexa's your sister?" I asked kinda shocked. I knew she looked like Sam. "Yeah. She kinda changed allot this year. She used to hang out with us all the time then one day she just stopped and started bashing us." She spoke getting more quiet and moving closer as if just to tell me and not let Jenna hear.

I nodded my head. "Well honestly homophobes really piss me off. I even got kicked out of school once for hitting this one guy at my old school." I spoke looking at Jenna and Sam. "He was bothering you" I nodded my head. "Why?" Sam asked. "Well he didn't like 'homos' and I got picked on. Which at the time I thought was weird cause isn't it like a boys fantasy." I spoke quickly. "Your gay?" Jenna asked me. My eyes shifted to her. "Yeah." I spoke.

She just nodded her head. "I gotta use the bathroom." Jenna said getting up and walking away. I looked at Sam. "She and Alexa had this thing going on last year. They were fooling around for awhile cause Alexa said she was curious and knew Jenna was gay. Anyway. One day I guess Jenna accidentally told Alexa she loved her. Then pretty much that's when my sister stopped hanging out with us and started hating us." Sam spoke.

"Why are you telling me?" I said, "shouldn't it have been Jenna to tell me about it and not you? Cause it sounds personal." I spoke looking straight at Sam. "Well your our friend and I don't think she would've told you. She likes you-" she spoke then slapping her hand over her mouth. "Oh my god. Pretend you didn't hear that!" She spoke. She likes me? But she had only known me for a day so far? "My lips are sealed." I said the. Moments later Jenna walked in.

This time I really looked at her. More like check her out. She was very skinny. Skinnier than me. She had this tomboyish style to her and her eyes. I love the colour. Overall I was still pretty impressed with her appearance.

"Sam your mom texted me. She kinda wants you home now." Jenna spoke flashing her screen to Sam. Sam sighed, "thanks I guess I'll see you two tomorrow. Don't have a cell but Jenna does. Get her number." Sam said as she was leaving my room. Well. I thought. "Well. What now lol." I said with a little chuckle. "We can go hang out at my best friends place." She spoke up. I gave her a weird look. "Sam is my good friend. I meant Cameron," I nodded my head, what could go wrong? I stood up and just threw a cardigan on.

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We got to Cameron's in like two minutes, Jenna drove us, we walked up to the door and I could hear loud music. "This is a party ain't it?" I asked. "Yes. I promise I won't leave your side. You'll be fine," Jenna spoke opening the door. There wasn't allot of people here, but at the same time they might've been everywhere.

"Want something to drink?" Jenna asked me and I nodded. I stood over by a fireplace and waited. "So your Jenna's new toy." I heard someone say behind me. I turned around and saw Alexa. "No, I'm her friend." I spoke. "I doubt that. No one this good looking is every just a friend," she spoke speaking the last bit of the sentence slower and closer to me. I tried hard to not let my breathing get hitched.

She pulled away and winked and walked away. I tried to not let it get to my head and I turned around just in time to grab my drink from Jenna. "You okay?" She asked. I downed it and nodded my head. "I'm good."

We talked for a bit then Jenna went to go see Cameron. I was standing for awhile alone when Alexa walked back up to me. "You know for someone who spilled coffee on you, you think you'd get the hint." I spoke. She let out a nervous chuckle. "Yeah. I should be mad at you." She spoke happily and placed a hand on my shoulder. "Your drunk?" I asked. I swear she wouldn't be this nice.

"Maybe, but so what. It's a party. Dance with me." Alexa pleaded. I looked for Jenna but when I didn't see her Alexa had pulled me onto the dancing floor. Which was just the living room floor. I sighed and started dancing with her.

We danced for maybe five minutes before she stopped and looked at me. "I think I'm gonna be sick." She spoke running away. I followed her. Just to make sure she didn't make a mess or die in her vomit. She was hurled over the toilet when I reached her. I pulled her hair back and waited for her to finish, I handed her some toilet paper and she had tears in her eye.

I frowned and she must've saw it. "I know right. Pathetic. How the biggest bully in the school is crying in front of one of her bullied." I shook my head. "I never felt bullied so.." I said trying to cheer her up. She let out a chuckle. "My moms gonna kill me." She cried. I suddenly felt strange. She doesn't even know me. I've only known her for not even a full day and now I'm comforting her like how a best friend would.

"Uhh." I said trying not to be rude. She shot up and fixed her makeup."you gonna be okay." I asked. She shoved me back a little. "Of course faggot." She said harshly pushing me out of the way. What the? I chased after her but stopped she I saw Jenna by the door. I was pissed. "Can we leave! I'm gonna leave." I said to her. "Uhh, I'll drop you off." She stuttered. I shook my head. "It's not even far. I'll walk. I'll see you at school Monday." And I walked out.