Save Me (A Demi Lovato Femslash Fic)

Chapter 20

From: Wesley Stromberg

Not much I'm just getting ready to head out.

To: Wesley Stromberg

Oh where are you going?

From: Wesley Stromberg

Band practice. Wanna come?

To: Wesley Stromberg

I'm sorry I can't I'm going to go buy a new phone then go to an appointment.

From: Wesley Stromberg

Oh okay I'll see you later at George Lopez's star?

To: Wesley Stromberg

Yes😊 at 7pm. Can't wait😘bye.

I closed my laptop and went downstairs. My mom told me we were going to get me my new phone so I put on my shoes and got in the car. As we drove back home from the AT&T store I asked my mom if she could just drop me off somewhere because I didn't feel like being home. My mom drove me all the way to the grove and said she had some things to do around there. She said she'd pick me up in an hour. I walked into Forever 21 and browsed the clothes they had. I'd never really liked Forever 21 but a cute leather jacket caught my eye. It was $45 bucks and I had no cash on me. I did have a credit card my dad gave me but that was strictly for emergencies. I bought it anyways and decided I would wear it for my date tonight. I texted Wes my new number and waited for my mom. Being alone in LA reminded me of when I first moved to Dallas. But there was no Rayne to make me feel better. There wasn't even a Demi to make me feel better. There was a Wesley though. Soon enough my mom picked me up and we drove home. At home I told everyone on FB to send me their numbers because I'd gotten a new phone. I knew Demi's by heart so I dialed and it went to voicemail. "Hey Demi it's me Yesenia. I know you don't want anything to do with me but here's my new number just in case...... I really miss you." I hung up and sobbed. It hurt, more than anything in the world. Later that day I went to my first session with Dr.Ryan. "Hello Yesenia it's nice to meet you I'm Dr.Ryan", said a tall brown-haired man. We shook hands and then he led me to his office. "Alright so are you feeling hungry." I shook my head.

"Okay so when is the last time you self harmed?"

"Right before I was hospitalized."

"Have you thought about self harming today?"

"Yes."

"When?" I stayed silent. "Yesenia it's okay, you can trust me."

"It was after I thought about someone."

"Who?"

"She was very special to me."

"Okay. What happened?"

"She didn't want to know me after I got hospitalized." I felt tears roll down my face. We talked about when I first started cutting and purging, about why I first started, and we created my new diet plan.

"You'll get better Yesenia, you're a smart girl." I smiled at him and he stood up to give me a hug. I hugged him back then went home with my mom. I changed clothes for my date and told my mom to drive me to the Hollywood walk of fame. As we pulled up to the sidewalk I saw Wesley standing there looking for me. I ran to him and hugged him. He handed me a bouquet of roses and I blushed.

"Second date is already a lot better." He smiled at me then opened the side door for me to get in his car. We drove for a bit and ended up at the beach. "No restaurant this time?"

"I planed something a bit different for tonight." He walked over to my side and helped me out. Wesley then walked to his trunk and pulled out a picnic basket and two blankets. We walked hand in hand and stopped about 9 feet from the shore. Wesley laid the blanket out on the sand and then placed the picnic basket on top. We sat down and he pulled out some sandwiches from the basket along with two sodas and a flame less candle. "Flame less candle. Very romantic." He laughed.

"Well I didn't want any safety hazards ruining this date. My mom makes really bomb sandwiches by the way." He handed me one and I took a bite. It was really good and I managed to eat most of it before my stomach started acting up. We talked about our families, what we wanted in life, and future plans. "I hope to make my music dream reality this year."

"Really? How?"

"I'm going to be on this talent search show on tv."

"American idol?"

"No it's called the X factor. Simon Cowell and LA Reid are judges and they're both great producers." I almost choked on my soda when he said X factor. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm just...surprised that you'd sing in front of Simon. He really harsh."

"I know but I have tons of faith in my band mates." Wesley smiled and stared into my eyes and I couldn't help but smile back. He seemed so sure of himself and eager that I found it incredibly sexy.

"Well I can't wait to see your audition on tv!"

"You can come with me."

"What?"

"To the audition! It'd be great, you could be my good luck charm!" I smiled at him and agreed. On the inside I was terrified. What if I ran into Demi? Imagine how awkward that would be, not to mention I'd start sobbing as soon as I leave. "Oh and Demi lovato is going to be a judge so I'm pretty excited."

"Yeah she's pretty."

"But not nearly as beautiful as you," Wesley smiled and leaned in to kiss me. It was a lie, no one could ever be more beautiful than Demi. At least not for me. His lips were not as smooth as Demi's and he didn't smell like sweet,warm Vanilla like Demi did. Wesley was incredibly sweet, smart, funny and cute but he wasn't Demi. I wanted Demi but Demi didn't want me apparently. He pulled away from me and picked up what we'd eaten. He put the basket to the side and we laid down on the blanket wrapped in each other's arms and covered with the other blanket. Wes and I were there until 11 then he drove me home and kissed me good night. My mom was happy that I'd found someone nice who liked me. Wes was nice but he wasn't Demi. No one was Demi but Demi and I had to accept that. I also had to accept she didn't want me anymore. No matter how much it hurt me. The days went by and soon enough Wesley's X factor audition came. The guys, Drew and Keaton and Wes and Wes' dad, picked me up pretty early in the day. We drove to San Francisco( they held another round of auditions there) and got there in good time. I'd met the group a few days back and they were really fun to hang around with. Since being with Wesley I haven't self harmed and I haven't purged. I'm eating a lot better now and everyone knows I've made great progress. I told Wes about my disorder about two weeks into our relationship. He understood completely and was incredibly supportive of me. I don't think I've ever been better in my life. I'm happy, I'm healthy and I have a great boyfriend. He doesn't pressure me to go farther than second ,minor league, base. We waited in line for hours and I was so nervous once we were inside. I prayed that I wouldn't run into Demi or even see her for that matter. When it was the guys turn to go up and perform Wes' dad and I stayed backstage. I was able to see them from a tv screen backstage. I immediately saw Demi and my face flushed red even though she couldn't see me. God she looked beautiful. The guys rocked their audition as I expected. I nervously anticipated what the judges would say. LA Reid was the first to speak.

"I don't like you guys, I love you guys!" The boys smiled and responded that they loved him too. I spaced on what Brittany had said but I assumed it was good by Wes' reaction. Next came Demi's response and I anxiously waited.

"I think you guys are so cute!" Her voice brought back so many feelings I'd struggled to burry.

"We think you're cute," Keaton said slyly.

"Aww thanks," said a blushing Demi.

Simon teased Demi a bit and I couldn't help but laugh. She continued to say great things about them and then it was Simon's turn. I took a deep breath and prayed he liked them.

"You know I loved your guys' audition. Since you came out to the stage, your song, everything." I kinda zoned out after he said he liked them. I really had to pee so I missed what they'd said afterwards. As I was coming out of the bathroom I bumped into someone.

"I'm sorry I should've watched where I was going." I looked up and saw Demi. She was smiling at me.

"Yesenia. It's you."