Justin
I'm sitting here looking at the twins who are laying in bed slowly falling asleep. I notice how Derek looks so much like Monica and it hurts a little but I continue to smile because at least I have my boys.
I sit and watch as their breathing slows into a pattern that tells me they are asleep before walking out into my own room grabbing my pencils and paper.I look at the sheet of blank paper and notice that since Monica left I haven't been able to write music which has gotten a little aggravating since that's my favorite thing about being a music artist is that I get to be myself through writing my own material.
I put them down on the bedside table as Jaxon walks into my room."Hey buddy you okay?" I ask him knowing that normally he'd be asleep about now.
"Yeah I came to check on you." He says rubbing his eyes.
"I'm okay so why don't you go ahead and lay down?" I look at him before he nods and walks out.
I then get up and go to the kitchen and open up the drawer where all of the silverware is. I reach in grabbing a knife looking at how sharp it is then look at my bare arm.
I slowly raise the knife placing it on my wrist before sliding it across my skin.I whimper out from the pain but notice the blood so I walk over to the sink and do it once more until I'm satisfied with my work.
I watch as the blood filters into the drain disappearing from my sight.
I look around for a rag and press it against the scars grimacing before walking back to my room.
I slide on a sweatshirt and crawl into bed as the skin on my arm stings from the touch of fabric."I'm broken." I mumble into the pillow that my head lays on and grab another.
"I'm broken and I'm a mess." I mumble into the pillow.
I look around the room seeing the blank walls and the empty side of the bed wishing Monica were here.
I look around noticing how empty and alone I feel.
Sometimes I have thought that maybe she didn't want me or the kids. If I hadn't requested her maybe all this would be different.
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Living The BDSM Life
FanfictionA lot of things have changed in the year of 4098 and 94% of society has went to living the lifestyle of BDSM but the catch is women are dominant and men are submissive a but what happens when Monica a young girl with a loving boyfriend doesn't want...