Over Again (Sequel to Fall)

Chapter 6 'How I Feel'

Saige's POV

I walked back downstairs from my room after thinking for awhile. Everyone was already in the kitchen getting ready to eat. Someone left the only seat next to Wesley, so I sat down by him.

"So, Saige, what's the baby's name?" Drew asked.

"I'm not quite sure yet. I was hoping Wesley and I could agree on something together," I answered, softly smiling at Wes. He nodded a little before looking down at his plate.

We all basically caught up on the past five or sixth months of our lives. It's crazy how much you can miss in a short amount of time. It was nice catching up with Wesley and the boys. I know I was mad at him, but I think I'm over it. I forgive him, and I missed him more than he thinks.

We all soon joined in the living room, only to talk some more. I was getting a little bored, so I went outside. I sat on the balcony on the backside of the house. I was enjoying the silence until someone joined me.

"Hey, aren't you cold?"

"It's a little chilly," I chuckled as my teeth chattered. Drew handed me his coat and sat beside me. His arm slung around my shoulders, and he snuggled up to my side.

"So, have you talked to Mari since you've been home?"

"Yeah, we're kinda at the same spot you and Wesley are at. Well, minus the baby. She's kinda pissed that I left, but at least I told her sooner than Wesley told you," he joked.

"She'll get over it, Drew. She loves you, trust me. Just give her some time to come around," I assured.

"So is that what I'm supposed to tell Wesley about you?"

"Drew," I sighed.

"I'm sorry, I know he made a dick move," he chuckled apologetically. "But what are you going to do? You've got to let him in for the baby. He won't let it grow up without a decent father."

"I know! That's the thing. I am still completely in love with Wesley, and I want him to be in the baby's life. I want to get back together, but he let me go so easy last time. I just feel like he's just going to stick around me for the baby. If I'm with him, I want him to be with me because he loves me, not because he feels obligated to be with me." He sat upright and faced me.

"You know that isn't true, Saige. How could you even think that? You know he's in love with you. He was bummed half the tour for leaving you. He beat himself up days and nights for you. Please don't try to play that bullshit."

"That was his fault, Drew! He broke up with me, and he left me. I was left to think I did something wrong in our relationship. Not only that, but he left without me even getting the chance to tell him about the baby," I sternly argued. As I finished, I saw Wesley close the sliding door and walk away from us.

"I'm sorry, Saige. I didn't mean for him to hear that. I didn't know you'd get so upset," Drew calmingly said. He sat back down and pulled my head into his chest.

"He should know how I feel," I said. I waited a couple seconds and felt the guilt building up inside of me.

"I shouldn't feel guilty, but I do," I sighed into Drew's chest. I gripped onto the ring and looked down.

"It's because you love him," he chuckled, "you should be talking to him right now, not me."

"It's probably just going to turn into a fight."

"I thought you forgave him," he reminded.

"I did, but I guess I just want him to know how I feel about it. I never got to tell him my side."

"Tell him how you feel. Blow up on him all you want. He'll understand. He knows he was a douche, but that douche loves you, and I know that for a fact."

"I hate to admit it, but I love him too, Drew," I sighed, annoyed.