A Loser & A Nerd || danisnotonfire

Chapter 2: Delphine

" Have fun filming anyway, I'll be in my room as per usual so if you need anything, just knock. And if i'm making too much noise with my music or anything then please tell me okie? " I say considerately, Delphine grinning at me thankfully before I walk out of her room into mine as I shut the door behind me. Also, if you have not guessed it, Delphine is a You Tuber too, just like Phil. And she is incredibly successful as well, with over a million of fans and subscribers. Honestly, without Delphine and her jobs, I would probably be a beggar. Or just very broke.
She practically is such a life saver and I cannot express how thankful I am for her and her help and support.
I grab my acoustic guitar strumming it a little bit as I sigh briefly. Playing instruments and singing are some things that help get my mind off my difficulties and problems. It is a huge stress reliever of mine and it has helped me out when no one else could.
Wow. I am really lonely.
I play around with my guitar and tune it to the way I want it and finally, I play it as the strum sounded so very melodiously. I then just played a few songs I had previously learnt, or self taught actually, as I stared down at the score sheets,my lips belting out every single lyric passionately. I was singing to and playing an old favorite of mine, 'American Idiot' by the ever so fantastic, Green Day. Yes,I am playing this in an acoustic version and not using an electric guitar but, why should I care right? I'm the only one who can hear this anyway, and the electric guitar will probably be too too loud and disturb Delphine's video.

***

After playing some songs and singing for some time, I decided to walk out to get some water as singing really makes your throat dry.

I notice Delphine at the kitchen grabbing the water container as she gave me her pretty little smile again.
"You finished filming your video already?" I question, taking the water container from her hand, pouring some of the water into my Nirvana mug that Delphine bought me about two years ago. One of my absolute favorite mugs to be very honest.
"Mmmhhh." she replies sweetly, holding her mug to her face as she took a sip from it. Her mug was a baby blue Cinderella one that she bought from Disneyland, depicting a sparkling silhouette of Cinderella and the glass slipper, golden glitter slightly chipped off at the sides and large cursive font reading "Cinderella" on the top of the mug.
"Nice singing and playing. " she comments, her beautiful blue eyes twinkling and her lips curving into another one of her famous smile.
"Thanks," I remark blushing a little. Delphine has heard me sing and play multiple times, we even do it together but I cannot help but blush whenever I receive a compliment. I am just a shy and awkward girl okay. I cannot help it.

"So are you going out with Michael for dinner?" I ask hoping she would say no as I have been wanting to spend some time with my best friends recently.
"Yea, I am." She responds. All the hope in my eyes vanishing and my cheerful expression changing in seconds.
"But, you can come with us if you would like to!" She quickly adds in, probably noticing my sudden change of expression.
"No,it's alright. " I reluctantly reply. As much as I would like to spend time with Delphine, I really did not want to be third wheeling their date.

***

We go on with this conversation, Delphine insisting that it would be alright for me to join them as I shake my head and refuse, playing with one of my many bracelets I wear everyday to cover up my scars.
"Please?" She then whispers, pouting at me like a little puppy begging for food.
I laugh a little at how adorable she is when all of a sudden, we hear a loud buzz coming from Delphine's phone,placed on the kitchen counter right beside her. She looks at the phone and then at me and without either of us saying or doing anything, I immediately walk back to my room with my mug of water in one hand as I look back to see Delphine picking up her phone but her eyes still on me.

***
" I was on the phone with Michael," Delphine begins, still standing at the entrance of my room, her phone clutched in her small hand, her light blue, almost turquoise, nails slightly cracked and chipped but still as pretty as always.
"He said that he would love for you to come with us for dinner." She continues with a hopeful smile. I stare down at my bed, pondering deeply on whether I should go or not.
"It's just a very casual trip to the mall and we have not spent enough time together recently." She adds with a gentle shrug as if suggesting "Why not come with us?"
I don't answer her back but instead, continue staring down at the duvet of my bed. When I finally look back up at her, she is pouting again staring at me with pleading eyes.
"I really love when my bestie and boyfriend spend time together as well you know."

As much as I love Delphine, I, at the same time, hate going out with Michael and her. I would always be the third wheel and would loner behind them. Not to mention, I was not that close friends with Michael and I am really awkward around people I do not know that well, like him. Honestly, Michael and I are pretty similar. We both have an interest in singing and playing instruments and we both are huge fans of many of the same bands and artist. But for some reason, I have always felt uneasy with him and I do not know why. To me, he has always reminded me of one of those stereotypical good looking popular jock that gets all the girls. And I have always felt afraid that he may hurt Delphine like all her other ex boyfriends. However, he is Delphine's boyfriend. The one Delphine would talk non stop about how much he makes her happy or how much she loves him and if he makes her happy then... I'm happy.

"Well?" Delphine interrupts my thoughts, staring at me with wide eyes, waiting for my answer.
"Uhhhh.... Okay. " I reluctantly say, grinning broadly at her as she does the same to me.
"Great! Get ready ok. We'll leave soon" she exclaims excitedly before skipping out of my room.
I nod at her, forcing out a wide and cheerful smile. My heart already thumping loud against my chest and my head flooding with possible "what ifs" that may happen.

I'm not sure if I made the right choice but, I said it already and I'm sure as hell not able to take it back now.