Addicted

17• lesbihonest

"I had sex with Matthew."

"Okay, wait. Are you like straight up lesbian or are you bi?" Nia questioned.

I rolled my eyes, "that's my husband."

"That's not the answer to my question", she shot back.

"Bi, I guess", I shrugged.

"But you prefer women", she noted, "I wanna meet the one who turned you out because you're just so far gone!"

"Okay, your confusion is confusing me. Would you actually date a woman? Because if not, then you're not lesbian or bi-sexual.. You just have a strange addiction for fucking women", Addie explains.

"I've never had that thought because of Matt--"

"But you had the thought to fuck other women--"

"Ooh, the shade", I threw my hand up, "like I was saying. But I would. Alyssa, my manager, she's definitely datable. It'll just take the right type of woman, I guess. And the right circumstances."

"Back to you and Matt. How did that happen?" Addie asked.

"He invited me over to talk."

"Hi", I mumbled, stepping inside the house.

"Thanks for coming."

"I told you we could talk if you wanted", I shrugged.

"I guess I just have a lot of questions", he sighed, sitting across from me.

"And I'll be more than glad to answer them for you", I rubbed my forearm, uncomfortably.

"You said it was my fault for making you have that threesome. Were you still seeing her after that night?"

I nodded, "I still am."

"How many women?"

"No more than 10."

"Wow", he rubbed the back of his neck, "and your manager.. How long?"

"Not long. At least two months."

"Why didn't you just tell me? What did you think?"

"I didn't want to hurt you. I didn't want you to judge me. I didn't think you'd understand. I didn't even understand at the time. I still don't", I explained.

"For better or worse, Desiree. Remember? Do you know you're probably every mans dream? I wouldn't have judged you at all. I just can't get over the fact that you lied to me", he responded.

"I know and I'm sorry", I placed my hand on his knee.

"So what are you? Lesbian or?"

I laughed, shaking my head, "I guess you could say bi-sexual."

"So what does this mean, for us?"

"I guess that's kind of up to you, depending on how you feel about the situation--"

"No it's not, Desiree. You have a problem. If you cheated on me before, it'll be the same thing all over again. I'm not going to force you to make the decision. It's all up to you. Whatever makes you happy, because it's obviously not me."

"It's just.. You were always away and then I found something new, something different and decided to explore it. You did make me happy, Matt. That just makes me happier", sighed.

"Do you think this is just a phase?" He asked.

"I don't know but I doubt it", I sat beside him, "no matter what though, I love you Matthew. Believe it or not. I'm just in a different--"

I was cut off by his lips.

He grabbed my hips, pulling me on top of his body.

Next thing I know, clothes were flying.

"So what does this mean for you guys?" Nia asked.

"Nothing. Matt agreed that we should stay separated for a little while", I answered.

"Well, that's probably for the best Dessi", Nia says.

I agree, because honestly, I didn't plan on stopping anytime soon.

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