Over and Over

Chapter 6

Liam was still in hospital. The doctor said that it will be long term coma. I don't feel right doing this without him. It's his family too, but we had to carry on according to Uncle Danny.

There was people from the military too, I guess some of them were officers and those fought alongside with my dad. I could tell because they wore hats and wore badges on their blazers.

Everybody suddenly stood on their feet. It was to pay their respects, I stood slowly and stepped forward and looked back at Luke, Jack, Ben and Uncle Danny holding Mum' coffin and Andrew, Calum, Ashton and Michael holding James's coffin until the front of the church. They all stepped down from the stage at the front of the church and sat on the benches around me, our designated seats.

The priest spoke for a good 15 minutes, it didn't seem like anybody was listening, everyone were in their own worlds except I didn't care because I weren't either. I was never really religious. My mum was, when her mind suited it. I smile slightly and quickly bite my lip in case anybody sees. 'What a freak' people may think.

My mind was lost in my thoughts of my future, Where will I go? Is Uncle Danny going to stay? Will Liam wake up? Does this all mean i'm an orphan?

"Holly." Mali said, shaking me from my chain of thoughts.

"Holly, will you like to come up and say something?" The funeral director says leaning his eyes into mine from a distance from where he stood on the stage,

Everyone who sat near me, smiled signalling that it was okay. Ashton even winked. I believed them and pulled out the flashcards out of my front pocket of my jeans and straightened my blouse. I jogged lightly onto the stage where the priest was standing behind the pulpit and stepped on a small stool so I was tall enough to reach the microphone. This is so awkward.

"Hi! My name is Holly an I'm the daughter of Sophia and I'm James sister. I'm not used to speaking to so many people so sorry if i say something wrong and mess up. Er I'll start off, talking about James. James and I never really saw eye to eye when we were younger. I always thought of him as an idiot and a jerk because he always used to be SO annoying, but I guess he was just being a big brother. When we growing older we bonded through music and computer games. Yes, we were like massive nerds. He's probably the only reason i'm doing a bit better than average at school. I never really expressed it to him, but I do still love him in some way or form. He was like a dad to me, I guess, when we didn't have one. He always stuck up for me and Liam. I've always been proud of him in everything he has done for the family and all his achievements. Love you bro." I say taking a glance at his coffin. I took a deep breath and held back my tears. "Well, my mum and me always had a good relationship because we were the girls in the house, doing each others nails and hair. I was never good at it! I once burnt her hair, ran away to Lauren's and waited until she noticed and calmed down. The funniest day ever. I didn't get in trouble that day because she did realise she put a straighter in my hand." I stopped and took a sip of water until everyone's chuckles had silenced. A catch in my throat arose, "I guess all i'm trying to say is that we had our ups and downs, but we always got through them. It's like having a twin, you know? When they're not around you, you feel kinda empty. They were those who completed me. They were those who were there in my time of darkness and loneliness. They were literally my best friends and that's so rare in families. I love you both, wherever you may be. I'll do whatever I can to make you proud."

"Thank you, Holly." The priest says.

"Sorry, er... can you do me a favour? Could you do a small prayer for Liam please, he really needs it."

"Of course." He smiles.

Tears start to roll off my face. Uncle Danny comes to the stage bringing me down about to escort me to a seat near him. "I...Erm... need a minute."

I just carried on running, I didn't know where I was going. I suddenly stopped, looked to my left. The horn of the white light stuns me in the face.

A/N:

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