My brother's bestfriend

21

I turn my phone off and sit up in bed, just noticing it's dark out

My alarm clock says it's 1:07am and I climb out of my bed and put a pair of shorts on

I walk out of my room, leave my phone in bed, and walk down the stairs with a sniffle

I look down at my feet, thinking of what shoes to wear and bump into a familiar wall

We really gotta stop meeting like this.

I look up slowly, and of course, Jordyn stands before me

"Sorry." I walk past him and towards the door, sliding my Crocs on

"Wait, Jules,"

I turn towards him and look at him silently

"Where are you going?" He asks calmly, but I still have so much fear for him

"A walk." I stutter and sniffle

"You're not going alone," he says and puts on his slides

"I'm fine. I'm not a baby, Jordyn." I say, quite annoyed that I'm losing alone time

"Yeah, well, I'm still coming with," he says, standing in front of me and opening the door, letting me go first

He sighs behind me and closes the door behind him

I walk down the sidewalk, and he walks beside me silently

"Listen..." he starts, and his voice is scratchy

"I'm really sorry," he says, and I hear the pain in his tone

I look at my feet while walking and stay quiet

"I didn't mean anything I said," he sniffles

"Then why did you say it?" I ask, suddenly feeling bold

"I wasn't thinking, I was listening to the wrong people at the wrong time, I regret it," he says sincerely

I look up in front of me and continue walking

I feel the urge to cry, but it doesn't come out

"I didn't cheat on you...I couldn't even if I wanted to."

"And I wasn't using you, I loved you, Jules. I still do love you, " he says, and I feel guilty for not responding

"I think I'm in love with you," he states, and I stop walking

He quickly notices and turns to me and looks at me

My eyes water and burn for the millionth time this week

"Did I say something wrong? I'm sorry, Jules. " he comes closer

I look up at him and wrap my arms around his neck

His arms quickly find their way around my waist, and he hugs me tight, his head lays on my shoulder

"I miss you so much," I sob into his chest

"I miss you too," he says quietly

"Jor," I choke out, pulling away from him

"Yes?" He asks, holding his arms around me still

"I... haven't been eating," I say, adrenaline pumping

"What?" His eyebrows furrow

"I'm sorry," my lip quivers

"How long?" He asks

"Five days," I sniffle, and his face goes blank with a hint of disappointment

I mentally hit myself for making him see me this way, but physically, I just stare at him