My brother's bestfriend

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Jordan's pov

Start of the day-

I walk into school and part ways with Julia before making my way to first period

I sit in my normal seat and rub my eyes looking at the teacher as he starts explaining a new project

"Hey Jordyn" one of my friends on the team nudges me

"Hey" I say looking back at him

"Are you still with that...Julia?" He asks

"Yeah why." I cringe at the thought of him talking about my girl

"You shouldn't be, you have to believe me"

"The fuck? Why should I listen to you?"

"Listen man, she changed you..your not the same since this girl happened."

"Do you have a problem?"

"Think about it." He says turning his attention to the teacher

What he hell does he mean she changed me

The next seven hours go by and I haven't talked to Julia once. It pains me, but I really have been thinking about what he said.

Maybe I have changed. He maybe right.

I contemplate it for a while and decide it's the best thing

She comes into my room and she's playing with her fingers, I hate when she does that because she always does it when she's upset.

Her eyes look reddened and I glance away from her

"Can we talk?" He voice squeaks

"Sure." I grumble

Before I know it I'm saying things I never even thought of

"I've been cheating on you this whole time." I state and her face is pale

"Really?" Her voice breaks and her eyes are shiny

My heart shatters into a million pieces and she slowly walks out of the room

I hear her door slam and faint sobs

"Fuck!" I scream and slam my door shut

My heart hurts knowing she's not happy. It kills me that it's my fault

A while later my door swings open and an angered Damien comes in

"What the fuck man?" He yells

"Damien stop!" Her voice is small compared to his

She runs up behind him trying to get him out

He ignores her and continues screaming at me, at some point she gives up and goes back into her room sobbing

"You don't understand." I mumble

"What? Damien looks at me and he looks infuriated

"You don't fucking understand!" I yell back at him this time

"Then tell me, tell me why you had to cheat on my fucking sister?"

I shake my head and he stares at me blank

"I had to." I say lowly and walk past him and go downstairs

He follows close behind me

"What are you talking about?"

"I had to, people keep saying shit. I can't deal with it" I say quiet enough so only we hear it

"What do you mean?" He asks, still fuming

"That I've changed, and I need to leave her. It's for the better, I don't deserve her"

"So you broke up with her because of some dumb bitch saying you should?"

My eyes move from Damien to a shaking Julia by the stairs, I hope she didn't hear us

"I'm gonna go to Amelia's." She says quietly aimed towards Damien

She walks out the door shutting it behind her and I look back at Damien

"Yes." I snarl

"That's bullshit."

"It's not."

"Did you even cheat on her then? Or was that all bullshit too?"

My silence gives him his answer

I could never get with another woman after having Jules, she was my person.

She is my person.

I slowly realize what I've done, and the it's too late to fix it

"You need you call her right now and tell her to come back. You need to tell her how much you fucked up" Damien states

"It's too late" I mutter

"No its not."

"I don't deserve her Damien! I fucked up the one good thing I had going. She deserves better" I sigh

"You have got to be kidding me." Damien scoffs and walks down into the basement

I go back up to my room and go straight to sleep

Julia's pov

Amelia is fast asleep by now, since we have one more day of school left.

I miss him, I miss his touch, his warm, his presence, I miss everything about him

I don't know how to function without him, I barely got by before we got together, now that we aren't even speaking it's agonizing

I can't believe he could do this, after everything he's said to me, and I still would go back and do it all again.

My heart tells me that I need to call him, tell him it's okay, that I forgive him. But I don't.

Instead I stay painfully still in bed and stare at the ceiling

All night long.

After hours of sitting silently in Amelia's bed, still feeling as if I'm alone, it's finally time to go to school

I changed into her sweatpants and hoodie and out my hair in a messy bun, zero motivation for the day

She drives us to school and we split to go to our classes

My second, fourth, and sixth hours are all with Jordyn, which it great for my situation.

First hour goes painfully slow, hopefully the rest of the day is quicker, because now that it's Friday I'm just gonna go home and sleep

I sit down in second hour and when I see Jordyn walk in his eyes are red and he looks like a zombie

I pull my eyes off of him and hold my head up with my hand

My heart is heavy and my eyes are just as bad.

Soon enough it's lunch time and it's awkwardly quiet

Jordyn sits across from me and we both look down at the table

I have no appetite so I just sit silently with my head lying on the table

I'm sure Damien told the other because they're all quiet, but the tension between Damien and Jordyn isn't there

***

I walk up the stairs, dropping my bag on my messy floor and sliding my sweats off and climbing into my cold bed

My lip quivers as my mind replays last night over and over again

Tears fall down the side of my face and I squeeze my eyes shut, hoping if I open them Jordyn will be in my bed, twirling my hair around his finger

I trace circles on my bed sheet thinking of times I did that to his palms and it only makes me feel worse

I sit up and hold my head in my hands, soaking my hands with tears

Why me