Hate yourself [mlm]

Honesty

[Vincent's pov]

Yesterday..

God it feels so unreal.. to think Mitchell is my boyfriend and we..

I smile and shake my head "damn it, Vin stop thinking about it.."

I pour myself some tea and sit down on the couch

"God.. It felt so nice.." I chuckle

I go through my phone and decide to text Mitch

'Hey Mitch,  you awake?'

I wait for a response,  I figure it's gonna be a while,  so I continue drinking my tea

'Hey Vince'

I almost spill the drink on myself when I get the message

'You ok?  You didn't take forever to reply lol'

'Very funny.  Anyw,  you wouldn't mind if I came over would you?'

I smile and feel my chest get a little warm

'Of course not!  Feel free to come by whenever'

'K'

I hold my phone up to my chest and bite my lip

I guess mum being at work isn't too bad..

...

After half an hour, I hear a knock on the door

I rush downstairs to answer it

I'm greeted by Mitchell pulling me into a tight hug

"Mmh.. I missed you.."

I'm a little surprised by his immediate affection, but nonetheless, I kiss him gently on the lips in response

"Let me walk you upstairs"

He smiles and I lead him by the hand to my room

We sit down on the bed and I feel a little awkward to say anything

"Thank you for yesterday.." I manage to mumble

I immediately notice Mitchell's face brighten a little, and a more genuine, embarrassed smile appearing

"You're uhm.. you're welcome.." he says shyly

I move a little closer to him, and he doesn't look away from me

"Y'know.. maybe I can return the favour somehow..?" I ask in my best suggestive voice

He sighs "okay, well.. there is something you can do for me.. but it's not what you're thinking.."

I look at him curiously "of course.. just name it, and I'll do it.."

He chuckles awkwardly, it's a fake little laugh that I find kind of cute

"Just uhm.. don't break up with me after I show you.. that's all I ask.. okay?"

I'm a little hesitant.. having no clue what he's planning to show me, but I nod

"I promise"

"Okay.. ah.." he starts breathing a little heavily.. before pulling his jacket off

When he takes the jacket off, my gaze is immediately drawn to his arms

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[Mitchell's pov]

What the fuck am I thinking..? he's going to break up with me.. he hates me..

He looks a little stunned at first, then sighs

"Mitch.."

I swallow hard "yea..?"

"I'd never break up with for hurting yourself.."

I feel the tension from my body release a little.. "you don't.. care? You don't think it's bad I didn't tell you sooner?"

He puts his hand on my shoulder "of course not.. I'm so sorry you felt that way.. does your dad know?"

"Yea.. he's the one who wanted me to tell you.."

"Well.. I'm glad you listened to him.. because this doesn't freak me out.. what worries me is why you do it.."

I feel my chest tighten.. my throat goes dry

"I uh.. I don't think I can explain that to you yet.."

"Hey.. if you can show your scars to me, I'm sure you have the strength to tell me why they're there.."

I swallow "uhm.. no.. I can't do it.."

He notices how nervous I am, so he stops pushing

"Sorry Mitch.. but remember.. you can tell me anything, okay..?"

I nod

He has another glance at my arms before making eye contact

"I love you, Mitch.. I'm so proud of you.."

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