Hate yourself [mlm]

Sunday boredom

[Mitchell's pov]

I shouldn't have done it

I shouldn't have tried to make friends with this person

I shouldn't have gone to his house

I shouldn't have let myself develop these feelings for him

I got lousy and let my guard down

I'm vulnerable

And there's no way in hell he'll feel the same things for me

Not in a million years

...

I get out of my bed.. and take a second to think about what I did yesterday.. I came home from Vincent's place.. and cried myself to sleep.

How fucking pathetic

I go to the kitchen and see that dad's making himself some kind of hot beverage.. it must be early if he hasn't even left for work yet

"Morning. what time is it?"  I ask,  taking in what there is to eat in the fridge

"About 1 in the afternoon."  He takes a sip from his mug and sits down at the table

"Wait,  why aren't you at work?"

"It's Sunday,  Mitch"  he chuckles as he scribbles some notes down on his writing pad

"Ah.  Okay.  Sorry I slept in"  I sigh as I decide to leave the kitchen empty handed

...

I sit down on my bed and think of something to do..

I decide to text Vincent

Mitch:  ["what's up?"]

...

Vin:  ["not much,  just studying for an exam"]

Mitch: ["couldn't be me. I'm a dropout."]

Vin:  ["oh yea,  I remember.  What's it like?"]

Mitch:  ["lonely.  But I don't rlly care.  Ur the only person I rlly like so it's cool"]

Fuck.  Why would you say that????

I bury my face in my palms,  stressing whatever Vince might think of me now

Vin:  ["haha I'm flattered :>"]

Oh..  now this is why I should stop stressing.  He's a nice guy.  He forgave me for breaking his nose for fucks sake.  I'm sure he doesn't give a shit whether I flirt with him or not

He's nice. 

He doesn't care.

...