Hate yourself [mlm]

Bravery

EXPLICIT NSFW!!

[Vincent's pov]

"I'm starting to think..  we're gonna go much further this time"  Mitchell says breathily

His words take me completely off guard for a moment..  I brush a tuft of his hair behind his ear and he stares at me intently..

Even in a situation like this where it's obvious what both parties are thinking..  I still find it impossible to figure out how Mitchell feels right now..  if he's really eager to continue..

"Are you okay..?  It's fine if you don't want to.."  Mitchell says a little anxiously,  snapping me out of my excessive thinking

"No..  I want to..  I'm just curious..  are you gonna back out again..?"

He smiles and shakes his head  "no..  I want to do this.."

He leans closer  "I want to make you feel good this time.."

I swallow hard and lean back..  not in an avoiding way,  more like a..  letting him be on top of me kind of way

And he obviously understands that..

"You're into this position..? Being under me? Is the angle a turn on?"

I tug his jacket sleeve playfully "it's nothing like that.. I just.. don't know how else to.. uh.."

"Get a perfect view of me?" He teases

I can already feel my entire body heating up..

"Every view of you is perfect.."

He looks down,  clearly flustered and I inch closer..

I put my hand on his cheek and start to gently trace around his jaw with my fingers

I lean in closer and our lips finally meet

This doesn't feel as awkward as the first time

He lets out a little hum, clearly by accident.. I smile against his lips and pull him closer

Our bodies touch, and I feel my chest go all tingly from the inside..

We part momentarily, my hands still holding him by the shoulders

"I love you so much" I manage to mutter

He looks ecstatic, which is a rare and loveable sight

He grabs my shirt collar and pulls me in for another kiss

It's a little..  rougher..  but it's nice letting Mitchell take control

And he's not wrong about the position being a turn on..

I love feeling him on top of me.. the way I'm pressed against the mattress.. the way he's pulling at my shirt.. I don't ever want it to end..

His lips part from mine and we both gasp for air

"Mitchell.. be my boyfriend.."

The words fall from my mouth without giving me any time to think first.. oh god.. I've probably just ruined this..

"Of course.." he replies, patting my hair gently

"Really..?" I ask, unable to keep the eye contact any longer

"Don't act so surprised Vince.. it's not like we haven't made out several times and are about to move onto fucking.."

I'm speechless for a moment

"F-..." is all I can manage at first

He chuckles "I'm really messing this up aren't I?"

"No..! Not at all.. I mean.. we were both thinking it.. I think it helps if we communicate a little better about this anyway.."