Cynari

Sleep

✨I hope you liked the last chapter :3 cuz it was fun writing it. I'm planning to do fluff instead of smut/NSFW. -Bean✨

I'm not sure where this might take us. I still need to remember: he's drunk as fuck and won't remember any of this tomorrow...so...might as well make the most of it...maybe?

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We end up settling on us returning to my place. Luckily, my roommates gonna be gone for the next month for a trip together. I don't really mind not going, because I don't know them that well anyway. Besides, I get more alone time with Cyno. But, I swear to the Archons, I've never been more confused in my life. And that's including my forest watching research!

I don't know what kissing makes us. Boyfirends? Friends with benefits? Or just a kiss for the sake of kissing? Ah, who am I kidding? He doesn't like me. He was--and still is--drunk. But right now, in this moment, I don't give a flying fuck about what's gonna happen later. I have him. He has me.

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I hold the door open for him and he wobbles into the room. Instinctively I hold his hand to lead him to my room. He doesn't even take a moment before he collapses face-first into my bed. I don't really mind, honestly. If it were anyone else, I definitely would. He's different to me. 

I, more gracefully, sit down in my bed and lay down. He's already snoring. I grab his body and hold him close to me, cuddling him. Even if he's asleep, I want to think that he enjoys being held.   Both of us have very 'serious' jobs, and we're not really expected to be mushy, especially him.

And then, at times like this, I feel honored that I can see him in this way. So differently than how he acts normally. Sleeping peacefully, like a god. 

There's no point in worrying, though, at least not right now. I take a deep breath, and squeeze him a bit tighter to me. I didn't even realize as I fell asleep with him in my arms. If I died in my sleep, it doesn't matter. I got over the awful shit building between us.

Wait.

No.

The test.

Did I fail it?

Fuck.