LOVE ; dazai & chuuya x reader [✓]

0 : prologue

since when have i first loved them? was it months, or was it years ago? only i knew. this love, which i felt for them...was disgusting. absolutely humiliating. dazai and chuuya have been a couple, albeit not a very healthy one for years- who was i to step in like that?

seeing them happy made me happy. was what i tried to delude myself with, a strained smile on my face whenever i saw them interacting with each other. they would never love me like i love them. i would think, seeing how beautiful they were, their love was beautiful, like the moon and the stars.

there is no space for me. yet, they would greet me with a brightest smiles and most cheerful attitude, holding my hand and dragging me along in whatever they were doing. protecting me from danger, walking me home. but when others asked them about it..., "it's purely platonic!" they'd reply.

my heart aches.

seeing them right now, happily walking around the streets, I can't help but frown. what if i was sandwiched in between them? a useless thought. something felt stuck in my throat. or was it my windpipe? i coughed, trying to get it out. but what i saw absolutely horrified me.

a flower petal, slightly stained with blood.

"y/n, you comin?" chuuya called out, hands behind his head. i hid my hand behind my back. "of course, chuuya!" i smiled. dazai's gaze lingered on me a bit longer, if that even mattered.

my heart aches.

(a/n: I'm not sure what i have in mind for this fic. chapters would be short, probably. my first bsd fic, and my first experimentation with hanahaki disease- i hope the characters aren't ooc.)

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