NEFARIOUS • JJK

• 4 • nosebleed

I sighed in relief. Fuck, bene. I almost puked. I like shooting, I'm the best at it. Taking lives of innocent isn't my cup of tea.

"I'll be there, in the chamber, getting electrocuted. If you want it to stop, I want you to..." I felt something heavy fill my palm. It weighed down on me. Breath came in slivers of pain. A mountain collapsed. Suddenly, I understood why people call him manipulative. A criminal mastermind. A wretched cruel monster.

"Taser her."

It was a stun gun. I could feel excruciating, atrocious pain already stem in my throat. "Easy, mio piccola? I believe you'll save me, prove your love." I felt energy drain me when his gentle touch left my body like a snake slithering away. My hand fell down with the stone-like weight of the stun gun. "If you do, you'll be rewarded."

I do want to prove I love him. Not like this. Anything but this. I was losing focus. Cara was hugging my leg. My hands trembling. The lights dimmed as he walked away. His strut is relaxed. No one would believe he's walking into a chamber to get electrocuted. My voice was drier than leaves in autumn, it scratched against my throat.

"N-No..." He didn't hear my weak voice.

Cobbled walls released ghosts when the chamber door closed. Dementors circled around. Trapping me and Cara in a bundle of sweat and torture. I'll taser myself. That's the only option.

A faint yellow light burned in the electrocution chamber. Cara dug tighter into my calf. Electrical whirring began, and soon, met with something too much like flesh.

The whirring didn't stop.

I heard a muffled pained groan echo inside. When I looked down, I felt warm heat drop. I was crying, I hadn't realised. The foreign object in my hand became a weapon which would change my sanity forever. Something which would make me hate myself till the abysses of hatred. My breath came forced when I smelled the incineration of human flesh.

I will be rewarded. I'll have his attention.

"Cara, tesoro." My voice was of a stranger when I spoke. She blinked innocently while looking up. Unsuspecting of the danger. I'm a danger to her. Why did I even befriend a child? The world I live in is ruthless and unforgiving. I'd brought this upon myself. If I love a monster, I'd have to convert to one too.

But, I couldn't move my hand. Her little face deserved better. I know the life I've lived, kids deserve better than that.

I broke, "Master! Signore! I-I can't do this. Stop. Stop. Please..." I screamed into black nothingness. No one heard me but myself. And, Cara, who got alerted by my scream. The way I broke down. I heard more tortured growled come from the chamber.

My husband's getting hurt. He's already hurt.

"Why is it dark, sorella?"

I succumbed to my knees. Losing balance because of my weakness. I've never been put in such a spot. "I love you, master. I'll always love you. This is not—"

Repeated groans of pain made my body tremble. Water drenched my cheeks. "Why is sorella cwying?" Cara's little arms came to hug my neck. I've had nightmares, no dreams since the beginning of time. None of them come close to this.

"Do it!" A yell came from inside.

"Cara, ge-get away. Get away from..." I choked, helplessness churning in my gut. Trying to unlock her hug. I held my husband in such high regard, I didn't wanna disappoint him. Cara doesn't deserve this.

"Are you afraid?" she asked with pure naïveté. I shook my head, still shaking with sobs. I couldn't hear one more word come out of her mouth or take the continuous traumatising sounds of the electrocution device going inside. The place I'd been put in didn't leave me any other option.