After school, I met up with Maxx who had been near the gates with Kai. Me and Kai never really talked much but we were familiar with one another.
¨Yo, Kai. What's good?¨ I asked dabbing him up.
¨Not much. Currently waiting on my meds.¨ He smiled.
He was currently still feminine-looking. He was getting surgeries soon.
¨Wait. What? What meds?¨ Maxx asked.
¨Testosterone.¨ He replied pulling his phone out.
¨And that is?¨ I asked.
¨Makes me more masculine. Hair, Voice, facial shape, and hormones.¨ Kai replied.
¨Alright. Sick, congratulations dude.¨ I patted his shoulder.
Maxx looked a bit jealous at the whole physical touch thing. I nodded at Maxx hoping he would understand I was just congratulating Kai.
¨Ahem. Kai?¨ I asked.
¨Yes?¨ He turned to me.
I heated up as I felt the need to tell him I didn't wanna lose him like I did my brother-to-bottom surgery. I hesitated before finally opening up.
¨I don't think bottom surgery is best for you.¨ I sighed.
¨Why? You don't fucking support me?¨ He asked.
¨N-¨ I went to talk.
¨Go fucking kill yourself man.¨ He teared up.
¨Look, Kai.¨ I went to talk once more.
¨Not the best idea right now.¨ Maxx said.
¨I LOST MY FUCKING BROTHER TO IT.¨ I spoke out.
Kai stopped crying and just stared at me. Maxx looked horrified as he moved back.
¨I. Didn't know. I am sorry.¨ Kai sighed.
¨Yeah.¨ I looked down.
¨Look, man. I am truly sorry.¨ Kai reassured me.
¨I have been told to kill myself enough times to not give a fuck.¨ I rolled my eyes.
¨We are sorry.¨ Maxx chimed in.
¨Give him a chance.¨ He continued.
I looked disgusted.
¨You wanna fucking tell me to kill myself?¨ I asked.
¨I AM SORRY!¨ Kai cried.
¨Fuck yourself.¨ I scoffed.
I walked away leaving the conversation behind, Maxx trailed behind me. I clenched my fist as the thought of my sister dying, the machines, my mother crying, and me falling to the floor before fainting came to mind.
¨WILL SOMEONE EVER LET ME TALK ABOUT MY FUCKING PROBLEMS?¨ I asked.
I never turned to Maxx I just stayed staring at the ground.
¨You can talk to me?¨ Maxx sighed.
¨No. I can't. Cause you talk to me.¨ I said.
¨I know? But it goes both ways? Right?¨ He asked.
¨It could've.¨ I looked at him.
¨It would've.¨ I continued before running off.
¨DAMIEN. WAIT, PLEASE!¨ Maxx called behind me as he chased me down the street.
I went inside and ran to my room, locking it behind me. I heard Maxx just come in.
¨Do you know where Damien is?¨ He asked.
¨Upstairs in his room.¨ my mom replied.
¨Thank you!¨ He pleaded.
His footsteps grew louder as he ran up the stairs. He tried the door but it was locked.
¨Yes?¨ I asked.
¨Damien. Let me in, please. I wanna talk to you.¨ He begged.
¨Why.¨ I asked.
¨Because? This relationship will only work if we talk through this. Plus I have something to show you.¨ He announced.
I got up and opened the door to see Maxx crying. I hugged him tightly and let him cry in my arms.
¨I love you.¨ He announced.
¨Not as much as I love you.¨ I replied.
¨More.¨ He smiled.
I wiped his tears and kissed him before shutting the door to my room so my mother didn't suspect anything.
¨Are you okay?¨ He asked.
¨Am I? No. What we should be asking is: Are you okay?¨ I corrected him.
¨I am fine.¨ He smiled, and a tear fell down his cheek.
¨You're not.¨ I sighed.
I picked him up and laid him down on my bed as I squished myself between him and the wall.
¨I am, I promise you.¨ He smiled.
¨Come here.¨ I held him close hoping he would tell me what is wrong.
¨Fine.¨ He sighed.
¨I feel like I ruined your life being in it.¨ He tucked his head into my chest and cried as he wrapped his arms and legs around me.
I held him closely as I quietly sobbed.
¨Love.¨ I lifted his chin so he could see me. The tears were visible on both of our faces.
He looked at me surprised to see me crying. My black emo-ish makeup had smeared down my face.
¨You made it better if anything. I can not live without you.¨ I managed to say through tears and hiccups.
¨Really?¨ His eyes lit up.
¨I always lie about my feelings to people. But never have I to you. So what do you think?¨ I asked.
He smiled and kissed me.
¨No words can describe how much I love you Maxx.¨ I smiled.
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IF THIS GETS OUT
Romantiek2 Boys fall in love and it gets hard to keep it hidden, so they come out.