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[name],

i can't i can't i can't

i can't do this i can't go on like this

[n/n] i'm so scared

i want to do something, i NEED to do something

but i'm so scared

of what people will say

what YOU'LL say

i have a little brother. how is he going to grow up with a brother like me? i'm supposed to be his role model. his rock, his example.

my parents, what will they say? when they find out their sweet boy would do something like this?

you

you'll hate me

you'll be so upset and mad at me. i can't deal with that [n/n] i can't

you'll never talk to me again and if that happened i would kill myself

i would take the fucking gun from my father's safe and point it at my head and shoot because god knows that dying and facing my punishment for whatever i do will be better than living without you

i love you so much

but i need to do something i need to intervene

but i can't

i know i want to but i can't

YOU CAN'T PURSUE YOU CAN'T PURSUE YOU CAN'T PURSUE

YOU CAN'T

i keep telling myself that every second of the day

the words plaster my skin, my walls, my everything.

i'm so scared, [name], i'm terrified. i was supposed to be good, a good kid and a good friend.

why did this have to happen? what am i supposed to do?

just remember that whatever happens i love you

so much.

hoseok