The ceiling was a white shade with little tiny cracks on it, you could see where Carls posters used to be where he would stare at them as he slept
As he got older, he didn't change his immature ways but he definitely got better at hiding it. I couldn't help but stare at the same spot he used to. It was like the world was moving tö quickly and i couldn't stop it.
Why couldn't i stop it?
I continued to stare at the ceiling for a while watching the sunrise shine into it. I knew that i needed sleep but i physically couldn't stop staring at that one spot on the wall.
"7:15 everyone up." Fiona shouted into Carls room where i was lying
"Morning." He smiled at me but he soon noticed i didn't move "What you looking at?"
I carried on looking up, occasionally blinking. My eyes must of been blood shot from getting no sleep at all, maybe it was the stress of a new job, was i really to week for a new job
"Ror?" He questioned "You okay?"
I looked over at him before quickly staring back at the ceiling, i wish i could tell you why i was so fixated on it but i had to idea. It was like it was calling me
"So Rory i have so many plans for today that we can do." Mandy bursed through the door
"Mandy!" Carl shouted
"Come on sleepy head get up." Mandy sat on the end of the bed waiting for me to say something
Why was they all talking?
"Mandy you can't just walk in here." Carl moaned
Can they just shut up?
"Fuck off, you have always been annoying." She snapped
Make them stop.
"For fuck sake, you can't just burst threw someone's door." Carl tried to explain but Lip walked in
There is to many poeple, i can't handle this
"What are you bickering about?" Lip asked
Go away Lip
"She just barged into my room." Carl complained
Just fuck off
"Mandy you can't do that." Lip told her
She's just trying to be nice
"Fuck the both of you."
Stop shouting
Luckily as soon as they stopped talking the buzzing that was happening in my ears stopped. It was like it overtook my whole body and i can't stop it when it does it
"Meds rory." Lip smiled at me as i just lay there staring again
I can't move
"She's not talking." Carl told him
i'm sorry Carl
"Ah shit, i will call her work." Lip ran his hands through his blonde hair
"Ian up?" Carl asked
"Yeah." Lip patted him on the back "Stay with her, make sure she does nothing stupid."
No leave me alone
"Aurora you okay?" Mickey asked me
go away
"She's just having an off day." Jimmy was now in my room
stop it
"Let's all leave her alone." Carl pointed out
Thanks Carl
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"Aurora im just going to go to the shops, Mandy and Sandy are downstairs if you need them." Carl kissed my forehead even if i didn't react
He closed the door gently as i heard his footsteps declining.
"You should just end it." I heard a voice say
"Your worthless."
"A milkovich how embarrassing."
"Do it, end your life." Another said
I found the strength to get up and go to the bathroom, barley making it there before collapseing onto the floor and passing out
If i didn't pass out i might not of still been alive anymore, i could of been dead
"Fuck what was that." Sandy shouted as she ran up the stairs to see my passed out in the bathroom
"Help me carry her back to bed." Mandy begged her cousin as she nodded
"Just like your mother." Sandy said
"I wish i got to meet her." Mandy sighed
"What the fuck happened to her." Carl shouted as he walked into his room
"We found her passed out in the bathroom." Mandy told him
"Fuck sake Aurora." Carl placed my head on his lap
"Is she always like this?" Mandy asked trying to understand
"She goes through really good spells and then really bad ones. But she also has physcotic depression so she gets her episodes more frequently and there a lot worse." Carl explained
"So is hers worse the Ian's?"
"Well right now it is but Ian has had some episodes that are much worse. But she always tries to kill herself when she's depressed that's why you have to watch her."
"Can she grow out of it?" Sandy asked
"In 30-40 years." Carl gulped
"Thanks for sticking by her." Mandy smiled
"Well look at Mick and Ian they will soon tie the knot." Carl laughed
"I was always rooting for them." Mandy laughed aswell
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FanfictionRory Milkovich is the youngest Milkovich in the family. She is 14 years old and completely different to her siblings. She practically lives with the Gallagher family since her dad abused her since she was very young, causing her to even get pregnan...
