Waitress X Jungkook reader

Done taking for granted .

Looking at the man in front of me , i couldn't help but feel heartbroken . He looked tired , his eyes were bloodshot red and had bags around them . He held my arms looking at me helplessly with his shoulder slumped. I wanted to help him , help him lessen his agony , and help him ease his pain. But what about my pain?

" Please don't leave me . Let me explain please. " he begged but i don't want to listen to him. I don't want to hear his excuses.

I turned my back and picked the bag full of my clothes. " Please tell me what can I do to make you stay? " he asked blocking my way.

" Do nothing Jungkook. Just let me go !" i exclaimed , raising my voice and turning to push him out of the way , but he didn't even bulge.

" No i won't let you fucking leave. So stop this nonsense right now. " he shouted taking the bag aggressively from me and grabbing my shoulders so rough that u couldn't help but winced.

First Andrew and now him . I looked up at him clearly scared. You don't want to mess with Jungkook whenever he is angry . I always knew not to go near him whenever he's having tantrums .

" Why? What more do you want? " i replied pushing his hands away from me, gaining some confidence. " I can't do this anymore not with you. " i added , feeling my eyes welled up.

He looked at me with disbelief written on his face . I had the right to be angry , and i had the right to leave.

" Let me explain, please. " he requested but i held my hand up not wanting to hear more from me . I wanted some time away from him.

" You don't have to explain anything Jungkook ." i answered ready to go.

"Just tell me something that I can do to make you stay , please, my love."he begged. I stopped and turned to look at him and said the words i never thought i would say to him.

" If i said that leaving the mafia would make me stay will you do that? "

He stared a me as if he couldn't believe that i just told him to leave the mafia. I know how important the mafia is for him but I don't know why I said it. Maybe because I was tired of not being able to go out without Bodyguards , tired of always thinking what if someone attack tonight order of always feeling unsafe and scared.

Looking at his expression I already got my answer. A sign escaped from my lips . " Sort out yourself first and come back to me when you finally realize that I am not someone that you can take for granted anytime you want. And when you do, i would be waiting for you with my arms open ,"
I whispered willing myself not to cry .
He is stood there with his hands in fists , jaw clenched tight And veins popping out.

" until then I like to be alone and heal myself" I added turning my back at him. Its unbelievable how love give someone the power to break you into million pieces . Leaving someone is difficult but sometime it needs to be done.

As I walk out of the door Jungkook made no effort to stop me which I am really for but at the same time devastated. And just as I stepped the foot outside of the room, i could hear him throwing the things and screaming . I hate it to go especially at this moment where we need each other but I wanted to be away for sometime, away from him. I know I was being selfish but I was tired , tired of being taken for granted.

I thought he was different , with him he made me feel wanted and loved. He made me believe that I could be happy but at the same time, as I gave all myself to him I didn't realized that I was nothing without him and that's what I used to fear the most. I knew that this day but come but not this early. It's been only 6 months.

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Now laying on my bed watching the sunrise, I couldn't even close my just for a second as images of him kissing that girl kept flashing inside my head.

After leaving Jungkook's estate. I took a cab. It was pretty late but luckily I found one. I have nowhere to go to, so I decided to come to Mr. Han's house where the door is always open for me.

The moment I rang their doorbell , Mr. And Mrs. Han immediately came to open the door with their pajamas
still on and when i apologised for that i woke them up . Mr. Han replied saying that they were already awake as Jungkook called earlier and said that i would be coming over, which really surprised me because i didn't even tell anyone . I wasn't even sure that i was going there until i passed the diner which reminded me of them.

I didn't like to be a burden for them. I planned to stay for a night only, but looking at Mr. Han . He's getting old and fragile . His condition was really getting worse so i decided to stay with them as Mr. Han insisted in that way i can help Mrs. Han take care of him. Plus I'm thinking of working again in the diner as Mr. Hanis too sick to go.

Shoving Jungkook out of head , i got up to get ready for the day . I just wished all of this is just a nightmare but unfortunately it wasn't . It was a sad reality.

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