Why The Hell Must I Follow The Fate of Novel If I Can Do Anything

Chapter 35 Biggest Fear

"SCARED OF DIE.."

"Die?? "Who is going to die?"

"I AM..."

Lady Octavi and Adel were both taken aback.

"WHO'S THREATING YOU IN PALACE, MY LADY?"
..

"NO ONE...I'VE ONLY SEEN MY OWN DEATH..."

Adel realized what was going on and asked, "Did my lady have a nightmare like seven years ago??"

"Nightmare??" Lady Octavi asked at Adel.

"She had a nightmare one night about her dead scenario."

"Is that true, my lady?" Lady Octavi questioned me, turning to face me.

I just remained silent in there. When Lady Octavi noticed this, she rose up and exclaimed,

"Perhaps it's best to bring Sofia here...my lady, she is the one who knows and treats well...However, it will take her five days to arrive. That isn't enough time..."

Is there not enough time? What was she on about? "Why does it mean 'not enough time,'" I inquired.

"I almost forgot to tell you, dear lady...That you have been unconscious for a week."

I was a bit startled. "A WEEK??"

"Yes...And there will be a party in the palace in three days...I heard you received an invitation from the Crown Prince...That's why I say Sofia doesn't have enough time to come here..."

The party...Did I have to go in there? At first, I tried to keep the main character from becoming too close to the crown prince. However, after witnessing what Nona did to Delia...I was afraid to deviate from the book.

Lady Octavi was at the front of the door when she left the room. "DO YOU BELIEVE IN FATE, LADY OCTAVI?" I questioned.

"Pardon, my lady?" she asked.

"DO YOU BELIEVE IN FATE OR DESTINY?"

"What is this fate you're talking about?" she said as she went back towards me.

"For instance, the fate of death—do you believe it?"

"If it's my fate to die, of course I believe it..."

"But what if you know you're going to die?" Do you want to alter it or prevent it?"

"Does everyone always change their own course of fate, my lady?"

"What do you mean?"

"A lot of people have already changed the course of their own fate, like people are trying to make a sum of coins to change their own lives."

"That's quite different...Our fate of death is in the hands of the goddess, therefore if you already know your fate of death, do you want to change or avoid it? Even the goddess has made it clear that you will die tomorrow."

"If it's for my own survival, of course I will try to prevent it..."

"Even if you face the goddess, whom will try to kill you?"

"Of course, even though in the end I will die, whether old age or killed, I have altered my own death..."

"Thanks for the answer, Lady Octavi..."

"Everything for you, my lady, and how about the crown prince?"

"Tell him! I need some time and some space...I will be absent from court for now..."

"What about the party?"

"I will rethink it again...For now, I want to be alone..."

"And about Sofia?"

"You can call her to come here...Is there anything again from you?"

"I believe that's it, my lady..."

Lady Octavi left the room, where Adel still kept staying inside my room. I told Adel, to let me alone in the room and bring the meal to my room, when it's time for breakfast, lunch, or dinner...Right now, I wanted to stay inside my room...

Adel nodded at me and left the room...

On the bed, I just laid on it. After watching, the death of one of the goddesses was surreal for me. The divine being or deity was just easily killed like a mortal in front of her. If a divine being could be easily killed like that, how about a mortal being? Yet, Nona told me that letting mortals kill other mortals meant her paragons would come to try to kill me. Whether they would kill me like in the book or instantly kill me even if it was not written in the book.

I got up from lying on the bed when I realised something.

"In that time, Gena mentioned 'her paragons', which meant Nona has some of her people as paragons in this world." I looked at the book on the desk and said, "What happened if all twelve figures are the paragon from Nona, It mean Cassius and Valerie are very likely paragons of Nona...Was I making a huge mistake by recruiting them?"

As I pondered over the possibility of Cassius and Valerie being paragons of Nona, doubts began to creep into my mind. What if I had made a grave error in recruiting them? Could they potentially turn against me, just like the characters in the book? These questions weighed heavily on my conscience, leaving me uncertain about the choices I had made.

Even though there were some differences between the book and reality, the most obvious were transmutation and the presence of the goddesses. Did all of these bind each other? There would be no transmutation if there were no goddesses. Maybe I needed to learn about this transmutation for the future; I couldn't always rely on Adel, even though she was so strong, according to Cassius and what I had seen. As I contemplated the significance of transmutation and the role of the goddesses, I couldn't help but wonder if my reliance on Adel was hindering my own growth. Perhaps it was time for me to embark on a journey of self-discovery and learn to harness the power of transmutation myself.