It's always been you, April Kepner

sober

Staring at the end
season 11 ep 13

🎵Back To You-Selena Gomez🎵

"you could break my heart in two, but when it heals it beats for you"

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"Just look at them" Callie mutters bitterly malign Madelyn look up from her lunch

"Who?" Alex asks

"Arizona and Herman... they're practically joined at the hip" Callie says

"Well, she is Herman's fellow. Isn't she sort of supposed to follow Herman around?" Maggie says

"They're laughing all the time, and Arizona seems so... Happy... like really happy" Callie says

"So?" Madelyn questions "You seem happy... Ish. Why do you even care?" she asks

"I don't, obviously" Callie denies "I'm just making conversation"

"Okay" Madelyn replies

"Don't you guys think it's weird how they're always together?" Callie asks

"They're not always together" Meredith says

"They do bunk up together sometimes" Alex says

"What" Callie exclaims

"Robbins has been crashing with Herman. She hasn't slept at the house all week" Alex says

"What?!" Callie says again

"Alex" Mer warns

"I-I don't mean like that" Alex says

"They're not together together, and you know that" Madelyn says to Callie

"Mm-hmm. Arizona used to hate her. Now they're having sleepovers?" Callie questions

"Well, it's a good thing, right, that they're getting along? Herman's not exactly the warmest person, so..." Maggie trails off as Amelia sits down

"When you talk to Derek tonight, would you ask him something for me without saying it's for me?" Amelia asks Meredith

"I don't know that I w..."

"Just ask him what he'd use to avoid disrupting the gratiolet radiations off the geniculate body of the thalamus" Amelia says

"Why don't you ask him that?" Mer asks

Amelia shakes her head "No, no, no. No, no. That's the point. You ask him. I can't ask him for help. I cannot listen to the smugness in his voice. You can hear it. He has transcontinental smugness. You know what? Forget it. I'm fine. I don't need him. I don't need Derek. I will figure it out myself" Amelia says confidently as she gets up to leave

"Yeah, girl power" Madelyn says through a mouthful of food

"Gross" Alex teases

"When did this happen? She found the perfect rebound without having to actually find rebound..." Callie confines talking about Arizona "I mean, she just gets all the good times and the fun, none of the bad times or the mess, no chance of getting hurt. You don't even have to wax. It's not fair! Oh, my God. Am I seriously wishing for a sexless relationship where I don't have to groom myself? Is that where I am now?"