Gaslight

I Dont Regert It

Warning mental health smut and abuse behaviour self-harm drug use

"I have taken a couple of days off the boss told me to I woke up all I did his drink whiskey I heard a knock "It was Bella hey I was half cut from last night you look trouble nice seeing you and your leg is bleeding it's okay come her I pull her in kissing javi shhh I what this leading her in the bedroom I contain kissing her. Maybe we should have a chill day yeah we lay in bed all day Bella was cuddled up to me. We watch old movies. And this pain is. throbbing "Hum Bella kissed me you okay yeah? I better go where sorry I have work but I will come back later okay kissing her she left
"I made lunch and ate "I haven't returned to Amelia I don't know how I feel towards her " I ate the microwave meal and caught up with some work "The case. I find it boarding "but I caught up with a lot of TV "I watch TV for the rest of the afternoon. "I finally realised it was dark outside looking out of the window" I decided to get changed to go out. "Grabbing my wallet I wanted to get drunk and forget about begins shot "I walked out of my apartment Amelia was going Hey she smiled what yeah
"I am going out have a nice night I will bye "Walking to the stairs I carried on walking to clear my mind "All I hear in my mind is a gun shooting the flashback of that night "I finally arrived at the black rabbit club "walking down it was lit in red. Hey. I have not seen you around whiskey please I winked at the bartender I sipped it thanks.
"she sat down I scanned her body black boobie tub top. And a mini skirt. She placed her hand on my thigh what is your name handsome Javi yours saffron she had a spark in her eyes well do you want a dance yes follow then javi she held her hand out "We walk at the back of. club in a room she swung her hips and slowly grinding.
"she took white. powder out of her top "to you. want some Javi sure "She sat on my lap and lined the coke on the table I handed her a roller bill rolled up. Shgaveve a glance and snorted it "Throwing her head back fuck that's good your turn javi "I snorted it and felt the buzz hitting my head. Fuck she kiss him I stuck my tongue in her mouth "She moaned fuck "She dabbed a bit of coke on her finger I suck itYouou wild yeah kissing her I like it wild boy yeah she danced around the pole "fuck my eyes were glued to her sexy body do you want another drink yeah "I snorted another line
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Fuck I looked up I was high she walked over to me open your mouth I did she poured vokia down my mouth which dripped "She brought out tequila shots she turned my neck to the side pouring salt "Shots taste nice when it one people's bodies yeah. She licked my neck for ny dick was growing she drowned the shot and suck a lemon in her mouth and mine "I did the same to she was grinding her hips. "I was sweating.
"When do you finish "Anytime probably know you want to bring this party back to mine "Sure can you wait for me "I walked outside with a half-open shirt "Waiting at the bar saffron walked out I was too drunk "Come on sling my arm we walked back to my apartment kissing her we finally arrived so this is where you live sure thing surger cakes "I open the door drink yeah "she took off her fur coat and was left in a black body suite with spenders I looked I was shocked she grabbed a bottle. So are we going to have some fun she ripped open my shirt yes "she rubs her hands down it "maybe I will give you a lot of fun hum I nodded she began sliding my pants off. Kicking them to the side saffron was straddling me "fuck have you yes she wripps the condom on fuck she bounces up and down moaning fuck I kiss her holding her hair javi more "Javi what the fuck I looked up Bella was standing there "fuck I was thrusting fuck saffron get off what fucking get off me okay "I looked Bella was sobbing "I was to drunk "Bella shouting a javi "saffron left "Bella what the fuck I put ny boxer shorts on "you are suppose to be my boyfriend not cheating I was having fun "you fucked another girl "hum she hugs me and hits me I am sorry "javi where over "fine "I didn't what to be with you and I don't regret fucking someone else.
"well you should be happy because I am not in your way "you held me back "javi I loved you "Bella I didn't I was using you like a fuck toy like the rest if the girls. "you a piece of shit you know that "yeah well you just a slag she slap me "don't fucking call me ever again fine "bye darling you such an asshole I grabbed the whiskey you know where the door is "fine she slammed the door I was alone "and in pain "I broke the glass bottle and was left with a shard of glass I slashed my stomach until it bleeds cut away the pain "and throwing it in the bin "I drank and drank until I was passed out.

The next morning I woke up on the sofa fuck I felt some trouble pain looking last night was haze I know I cheated and done some pretty dumb shirt "javi I heard the door knock "javi I looked its Steve murpy can you open the door javi just give me a second "I his the blood stain throwing a tee shirt on I looked a messy open the door fucking javi you look like shit thank heavy night yeah "what happens he seen bottles everywhere sort of got drunk and took drugs javi why "I don't know I am such a mess I fuck up "I cheated on my girlfriend last night I slept with a girl slapped by my ex girlfriend javi you need to get your head sorted out maybe visit your parents your right I looked that's anything else not "well I will ring you okay packing my bag all I wanted to do is get out of town and run way that what I do best. Javi the cowed

Sorry it's short but there more drama to come, .....