I need you

12. only him

Olivia's POV

I feel the cold water running down my body. Charles was cupping my face looking me deep in the eyes. I finally start to breath normally. How did he manage to do all of this for me?

It's been the second time in a few days after we met that I got a panic attack on front of him and he's still here trying to help me get trough it.

"I do this every time I start to panic before a race." Charles told me out of breath. He gently rubs his thumb over my cheek.

It felt weird. Everything felt weird. My head felt fuzzy. I'm mean I'm still drunk and the anxiety pills starts to kick in. „Fuck." I burst out laughing. Charles is looking at me worried.

„Are you okay?" I'm pretty sure I'm as confused as he is right now. But I couldn't help it, I couldn't stop laughing. Charles is still looking at me like I got crazy or something but then he couldn't hold his laugh back either.

We're both just standing under the running water, laughing and looking at each other. All of the sudden he stopped laughing gazing me with a serious face. Even tough the water was ice cold I got hot. Really hot.

I turn off the water, look up and down on him. "Why me, Charles?" I began to ask. "I'm nothing and I'll never be anything. So, why me?"

He opens his mouth, closes it again. Trying so hard to find the right words.

I was nothing and maybe he does think so too.

"Because you're everything I have ever dreamed of and I knew from the second I saw you, that I'm gonna fall in love with you. To me, Olivia, you're very special." I felt the tears coming again. But this time it wasn't sad tears. It was happy tears.

In this moment I felt very special. And when I think about it, it's insane. I barely know him, I shouldn't trust him like that. And if I told anyone about it, they would think I'm crazy.

I shouldn't believe in what he's saying to me.

But I can't resist it. I can't stop it.

This men will be literally the death of me and I couldn't care less. Right now it's just me and him and everything that happened, all the pain I'm going trough, all the shitty thoughts, everything besides him, is irrelevant.

All I want is him right now and only him.

„Where were you my whole life?" I ask before crushing my lips against his.