Loving Mother 💠[2] Delilah-Jo Voight

Mistake

Two months later

I sat on the couch freaking out. I was at dads house. Erin was in front of me. "Does jay know" "about the kiss yes beyond that I don't even know what happened but" I play with the rest "how could I I love jay so much that it hurts" I said crying Erin just hugs me. The test on the table giving the one answer I didn't want. In big letters the word pregnant the others with fancy pluses. "You positive jays not the father" "we haven't since Evan" "do you know" I nod crying "I said that night i shouldn't drink but they kept buying me drinks and it was my first time out in well I can't remember I kissed his cheek I'm a horrible person" Erin just held me I would give anything to have my brother holding me, telling me everything would work out.

It was safe to say that after telling Jay everything erupted. DelilahJo didn't expect or want jay to forgive her. He didn't know all the details but had been told a few. DelilahJo had left she didn't want to leave her babies and always turned up for them whenever they needed but she left jay. It hurt her to see him. To be reminded of what she did. "Dad where's mum" Justin asked he had been asked that every few minutes it felt like "I don't know" he hated that that's the answer he had to give them. "What happened" MillieFlorence asked Jay didn't have the heart to tell him.

Erin joined the team specifically she joined jay. "You spoken to Lilah" "no" Jay sighs driving something that would never happen when they were a team "you know" "I know" "do you know where she is" "nope that was always Justin's department...I'm not making excuses but I am going to give you the reasoning you urn for" Erin said glancing at him "no one knows but when you were with hailey she was with him like with with romantically with him she was drunk and it's easy to get her drunk because of the medication she's on which is why she never drinks from what I know he was drunk as well" "so what" "so that means that neither one of them had any intention of hurting anyone there was no intent behind it it doesn't change her feelings for you" "I don't even know where she is" "she didn't know she slept with him until the test and you haven't seen her because it's overwhelming she's panicking which according to her brother Justin means she's not thinking just operating" "so she abandons us" "jay I don't think she knows what she's doing right now I think" "she's having an episode how did how did Voight know she had it" "depends which one your talking about" "I think Justin may have something but I'm terrified" "that's Lilahs department if you ask me but from how she was growing up his exactly like her and we all know he has attachment issues with her" "you think I should get him tested" "I don't know Lilah won't admit it maybe talk to Voight" she shrugs. "Do you know where she is" "nope when was the last time" "two weeks ago but I know Kelly saw her a few days ago kids miss her" "do you" "she's my wife Erin I love her" "finding Lilah was never my strong suit it was always Justin every time...Voight had to called the prison more than once and Justin still somehow found her" "she's never taken off like this" "not while you were together no but she has when she was younger" "you know where she went then" "there's no consistence and she's never run because she's blown her life up overwhelmed yeah but never to this degree give her a few days" "it's been two weeks if we exclude Kelly seeing her" "she'll never completely abandon the kids she's probably messaging moon everyday" Erin said shrugging "no one knows do they" "only me unless they were here at the bar even then I don't know" she shrugs

DelilahJo sat in the couch. She was feeling distraught, the elephant on her chest never seemed to disappear. She ruined everything. "You need to go back home" Luke said he said walking in. The hot sun beaming in from the open sliding doors. The warm air was euphoric, the opposite of Chicago. "I don't mind you being here but I know you love those kids" he added right as Tim walked in "hey you seen Lyssa" he said not looking around "Lilah" Tim said shocked coming over and hugging her. "Love how your all just living at my place now" "I'm getting a new place relax what are you doing here" "she blew up her life so now she's here bugging me" Luke said seriously everyone knew he was joking though. "Lucky for you Justin was the only one to ever be able to find you" Tim said kissing my head "that's why your here isn't been trying to figure it out you always go to Matt's but here you are...you can't run to your brother so you run to me I'm flattered" Luke said gently shoving me.

"You never went outside Chicago why now" Tim asked "I'm pregnant and it's not my husbands baby wow that's the first time I said it out loud besides telling him" "so you cheated" "yes but not intentionally I ruined everything" DelilahJo said feeling the need to cry again. LA was perfect this time of year. Luke he was a Voight, dad wasn't an only child his sister was Luke's mother. She's long since passed. Luke was close with Justin hence why I felt like running to him now. He was the closest thing to my brother I had left. He felt like my brother. They both had the same warm hug. Alyssa was part of there group from what I know, Tim I don't know for certain, I believe his Luke's cousin from his dads side. Justin knew this stuff, I stayed out of it beyond Luke.

Luke

Tim

Alyssa