CW: justification of abuse by the abused person
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After a few weeks they went back to London and school together and Elda was feeling...under stimulated. That was one way to define it at least, others might prefer the world lonely. And it's not that she was lonely, she had Jan, Lily and Ivy and they hung out every day in school as well as most afternoons. She and Jan basically lived together, switching who's apartment they would stay at each night. But something was missing.
One night Elda and Jan fell asleep on each other while watching a movie. Elda had her head on Jan's chest, her arm around his torso and his around her back. As Elda cuddled into Jan's chest she realized what she was missing were the closeness and love one could only find in a romantic relationship. That night Elda stayed up late and her thought went to her last boyfriend. Perhaps he wasn't so bad, after all he only wanted to make sure Elda wasn't cheating on him, and Elda did hide a boy from him, lover or not, so perhaps his anger was justified. These were the thought circling her head that night, and Elda found herself thinking of going back to her ex. They did know each other really well, and she did enjoy her relationship most of the time. Most of the time being whenever Elda didn't bring up the name of any other guy.
The next day Elda expressed her feelings to her friends, expecting to get support from her girlfriends at least. That was not the case. Lily and Ivy knew about why Elda had left her ex, so why Elda believed they would be supportive of her desire no one knew. Lily tried to go about it gently, asking Elda why she felt that way and why she's repressing the manipulative side of her ex. Ivy took another approach, not quite hiding her true opinions and outright asking how Elda could ever want to go back to him with disgust in her voice. Jan mostly sat quietly listening to Eldas explanation and their friends responses.
When they got home that afternoon Jan sat down with Elda, giving his true response.
"I don't want you to go back to him Elda. I know you have a free will, but I will not let you return to him" he said calmly with a serious tone of voice, looking into her eyes.
"Why?" Elda asked, as if offended by his saying. "You don't know him Jan, you know nothing about him, so you don't have the right to judge him".
"I might not know him, but I know you, I know what he's done to you. You can't expect me to just look past that Elda." Jan pleaded, tilting his head to the side.
"Everyone makes mistakes" Elda countered, her voice turning quieter.
"Yes" Jan agreed. "But some mistakes are bigger than others, and you're not obligated to forgive them."
Det känns som livet stannat
Och tiden bara rullar på
Ja, snart är det december
Fast det var midsommar igår
Jag tar en AW på en måndag
För att ge den lite liv
Det är inte mycket nu som funkar
Jag lär då va innovativ, ooh
(Feels like life has stopped
And time just keeps on passing
yeah, soon it is December
even though it feels like midsummer was yesterday
I go to an after-work party on a Monday
to give it some life
Not much is working out right now
I better be innovative)
Plötsligt tänker jag på dig
Du var ändå helt okej
Fan, man får la ångra sig?
Och mina vänner undrar om jag tappat det
Men det är redan allt för sent
Kalla mig för schizofren
För jag sa
(Suddenly I think of you
You were actually okay
Fuck, can I change my mind?
And my friends wonder if I've lost it
But its already all too late
Call me schizophrenic
Cause I said)
YOU ARE READING
You put me on fire || Jan. R. (Discontinued)
Fanfiction"The polish representant for this year's Eurovision will be...Three, two, one...BLANKA" And right there, at that moment, was where Elda's anger became too big to control and the thought of her actions having consequences didn't even cross her mind a...
