No name... Yellowstone fanfiction

chapter 17 "blues man"

I was having a lot of trouble sleeping for the past month. I was officially four months pregnant and all I had to show for it was the craving for food, sex and for some reason I craved the smell of rips body. Weird. I know. it was around 4:30ish. About the time rip gets up. I shuffled my fat ass into the bedroom holding a warm mug of coffee. I sat on the edge of the bed where rip slept like a log. I pet his hair back gently. He mumbled and groaned as his face hid in between his arm and his pillow. "Mornin honey" I say softly. He glances up as he rolls onto his back. "Couldn't sleep again?" He grumbled. I shook my head. "Nope. But I got your coffee right here  and breakfast downstairs" I pet his hair back as he stretched. He sat up slightly "I should've stayed up with you" I hummed a smile. "No point in that. You'd just be tired for work" I tilted his chin up as I kissed him deeply. "You're being lovey today ain't ya?" Rip whispered in my lips as he kissed me back. "Mmmm very" I mumbled on his lips. I straddled his lap as he laid back down. He placed his warm hands on my cold bare thighs rubbing them soothingly. He looked up at me with his blue eyes gently shined  in the hallway light. I gracefully pulled the tie of my robe apart, revealing my nude body very slightly. Rip watched in awe as he ran his hand inside the robe to caress my chest. I leaned down kissing each other roughly. He slipped the robe off my shoulders after pulling his boxers down slightly. I grinded my hips against his. He sat up as he pulled me close against his chest. I moaned into his neck as he grabbed around my hips and waist. I place my hand between his jaw and collarbone. We look each other in the eyes as he thrusted upwards to my satisfaction. I leaned my forehead on his forehead as he thrusted deeper and harder. We continued to connect our lips. I couldn't get enough of the feeling of his body. Every inch of him brought me joy. Exactly what I was craving

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I leaned on the doorframe of the front door watching him slip his boots on. I watched as the breeze gust his hair before he placed his hat on. He stood up then placed his hands on my cheeks. "Imma be home late tonight mama. So don't wait up for me" he says softly as he kissed me deeply. I watched him with glistening eyes. "Where ya headed?" I questioned sweetly. "I'm gonna go out for a couple drinks tonight" I nodded. "With beth?" I asked innocently. He furrowed his brows. "Nnnno with the boys. Beth moved away honey. To the city for work." She did what? So she's gone? No wonder he's loving on me all the time. "Oh.." I say. He shook his head as he pecked my lips. "I'm giving you my word honey. It's just us three. I ain't messing with her no more" he rubbed his thumb over my cheek. "I know...I believe you" he gave me a nod once more. "I'll see you later honey" rip stepped off the porch heading out for the day. He looked back at me "keep that baby healthy!" He called. I smiled as I waved at him. After I watched him walk off I knew right then and there where I belonged. I felt love heal over my mental wounds. He was the one I adored.

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It was around 1am when I got a phone call. "Hello?"

"Hey pinkers! It's ya pal Ryan! Yeah I just uh was wondering if you could come pick up rip" he questioned I furrowed my brows "what's going on?" I say as I slip on jeans. "rip is..." Ryan lets out a loud laugh. "rip is drunk as shit! Well all kinda are actually! Can you come get all of us? You're the DD for the next nine months. You've got a teeny human in you" he giggled as the other boys hollered in the background. I sighed with a slight laugh. "I'll be there soon sit tight you son of a bitch"

I pulled up to the bar where Lloyd stood with rip holding him up right. Lloyd opened the door shoving rip into the front seat. "Can you handle this one sugar?" Lloyd asked. "Yeah I got it!" I chuckled as he shut the door. "the fuck happened to you?" I questioned. Rip looked up at me with glazed over eyes. "ain't you a sexy mama" he smirked. I could smell the liquor on his breath from across the truck. The rest of the boys piled in the bed of the truck. "You never drink like this are you okay?" Rip shook his head as he unbuckled his belt. He began to stretch out across the seats.
"I'm fine. I'm just. Enjoying life before becoming a father" he stopped for a moment and scoffed to himself "a fuckin father. I'm gonna be a fuckin father" be slurred as I drove. I glanced at him now and then. "Is that bad thing? Did I cause this drinkin?"
"No. No. No way. Im terrified ya know. I'm  like gonna be a shit father" he mumbled. "no you won't. I know you. You're gonna be a great daddy" I say as I glance at him a bit worried. He looked at me and stared. "Rip" I laughed nervously "you're freaking me the fuck out! Stop being creepy!" Rip waved his hands around "I'm sorry baby. I'm sorry. I just love you. I love hearing you call me a daddy. Cuz imma be a ffffuckin daddy" he scooted closer to the middle of the bench seat. I continued to laugh as I glance back over at him. "You love me?" I questioned. "I've loved you since the moment I heard that song. Ya know that one song"
I laughed even louder "I have no idea what the fuck you're talking about. But you're gonna make me piss my pants"

"Hey baby I love you. Hey baby I neeeeeeddd youuu, hey baby you ain't gotta prove to me you're some kind of macho maannn" rip blurted out onto song as he rubbed my tummy. He slurred his words so bad he nearly sang the song wrong. I glanced at him again. "I get it. I get it" I patted his knee before putting my hand back on the steering wheel. "Do you love me mama?" He laid his head back on the seat still admiring me. "I do. I do rip a lot. But.. I'd much rather you say those kind of things when you're sober"

"I can't mama. I don't know how to do them things! I ain't good in the love department. Just the love making department hence your big ol belly. Belly belly belly belly!" he snickered to himself. "I wanna see that baby in your belly belly belly. That a funny fuckin word" I pulled up to the bunker. I turned to him. "You're so annoying" I giggled. He smiled at me patting my cheek. "and you're so pregnant. And I love it. And I love you. And I can't tell you that all the time" he smiled tilting his head.  "You ain't gotta tell me. You just gotta show me from now on alright daddy?" I kissed his forehead. He smiled a bright smile up at me along with a drunken hiccup. "I love you" he says once again. I stroked his cheek. "I'm 30 years old now, nights would be cold now
If you hadn't stuck it out" he smiled as he placed his hand on my face as we both at the same time finished the song   "with this blues man" 

"See!!! I new you need what the fuck I was talking about god damn it! YEE HAW!!"