Richie tozier angst

Another day after the other.

Honestly, what Stan said to me really hurt. It actually caused tears, I need to change, but if I do they will notice something's different. I don't know what to do.. I close my eyes, I've been laying here for hours, Turning around over and over trying to sleep. But I can't, just because Stans stupid joke.. I'm being way to over dramtic about this,I open my eyes and check the time, it's already 7AM? I didn't even get any fucking sleep.. I think this is the last day of school before weekends. ( Even though that probably started much longer ago) I really don't want to go.. I'm so fucking tired, again, fuck you Stanley. I sit up and stretch my arms and legs. I rub my eyes, and put my glasses on. Another crappy day, great..

I brush my teeth, have a shower, get changed and don't even think about eating, I just ran out the door and got onto my bike. I swear to fucking god I don't want to see Stan right now.. But in a way he is kinda right, I have no right to be mad.. but did he have to say it in my face? Like sheesh, Could've said it nicely instead of bringing it up randomly in a 'Fight' or whatever. I roll my eyes and continue on my journey though another day of hell, lovely.. Once I make it to school I put my hoodie on to hide myself from the losers, I need to get prepared fortoday before I have any small confersations with anyone. I need to build up my fake confidents.

(Time skip to) After class I make my way to the cafeteria. I guess I'm ready to face the losers.. I just hope nothing bad or uncomfortable happens.
I sit down next to Eddie, who looks like he didn't see the messages from last night. I look to Stan, who looks like nothing ever happened. I cringe at this. I look to Beverly, who glances at me every once and a while. Then I turn to Mike, who looks concerned for me. Everyone
else has no idea what happened. I wonder if Stan would actually care if he found out what he said hurt me, it doesn't seem like he cares.
"Okay, I was gonna wait till after school to ask but whatever! Richie, are you alright? You just disapeared after last night."
Bev asked. "Hey- what happened? Give some context." Eddie requested. "Just check the groupchat." Mike said. Stan rolled his eyes, and the rest checked their phones, I sink into my seat. "Woah- Stan what the hell?" Eddie looks at Stanely "What? How was that so bad?"
Stan defended himself. "Guys, it's no big deal.." I said faintly, staring at the floor. "Richie, just tell the truth. It's not like the fucking world will end when you admit something hurt you." Eddie exclaimed. I sigh and cover my face in my cold hands. "Sheesh, I'm not that sensitive? What do you think I am, glass?" I move my hands away and look at Eds. "See? I didn't say anything that bad?!" Stan defended again. Eddie rolled his eyes, why is it so difficult for me to express feelings? I rest my head on my hand, I'm so tired.. My eyes slowly close and I didn't even realize, I start to fall asleep.

(Eddie's perspective)

I look over to Richie, who is clearly falling asleep. He falls on my shoulder, I raise my eyebrows. Did he even sleep at all? I look at the other losers and glance at Richie, they look at him. "The fuck-" Stan said. "If he fell asleep last night STAN, why would he fall asleep at school. Hm?" Beverly looked at Stan, like she just found proof he commited a crime. Stan sighed. "Should we bring him home or something?" Stan asked. "NO" Me and Bev said at the same time, we looked at eachother in confusion, the rest looked at us with furrowed eyebrows. "Can't we just- Wake him up? Or something.." I look at Richie, then look back. "If he didn't sleep last night we should probably let him sleep shouldn't we?" Mike looked at everyone in the group besides Richie, for obvious reasons. "I guess so.." I agree.

(Back to richies side.)

I open my sleepy eyes, and look around to see everyone talking. I realize I'm laying my head on something, I look up to see what it was.
I see Eddie, he looks down at me and waves. "Did trashmouth wake up from his nap?" Bev grins, but I don't take my eyes off Eddie, my face turns red. "Uh- sorry." I sit up. "It's fine." He giggles, I blush even more.
I can't believe I did that- atleast I got some sleep I guess, then I don't have to fall asleep randomly in class or something.
The bell rings. Well, speaking of class. I get up and start ot make my way to class.