Richie tozier angst

wish he had gotten reddie for the fight

(thoughts of SH ⚠)

I went home from school early, getting prepared for possible getting beat up by someone I should call 'dad'.. But he won't be home for a while, so I'm good for now.. I hear a knock from the door. My eyes widen, is he home already?! I get out of bed and immediately look out the window and see Bev and Eds.. Thank fucking god.. "𝘞𝘏𝘈𝘛 𝘛𝘏𝘌 𝘍𝘜𝘊𝘒 𝘈𝘙𝘌 𝘠𝘖𝘜 𝘎𝘜𝘠𝘚 𝘋𝘖𝘐𝘕𝘎 𝘏𝘌𝘙𝘌?!.." They look at my head thats peaking from the window. "𝘙𝘐𝘊𝘏𝘐𝘌, 𝘓𝘌𝘛 𝘜𝘚 𝘐𝘕 𝘞𝘌 𝘕𝘌𝘌𝘋 𝘛𝘖 𝘛𝘈𝘓𝘒!!" Beverly yells. "𝘊𝘖𝘔𝘌 𝘖𝘕 𝘓𝘌𝘛 𝘜𝘚 𝘐𝘕 𝘋𝘐𝘗 𝘚𝘏𝘐𝘛!" Eddie yells, his phone starts to ring. "𝘪𝘵'𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥.. " He says, I hear him very faintly, Eddie answers and I roll my eyes. "𝘐'𝘔 𝘕𝘖𝘛 𝘓𝘌𝘛𝘛𝘐𝘕𝘎 𝘠𝘖𝘜 𝘎𝘜𝘠𝘚 𝘐𝘕. 𝘐𝘍 𝘠𝘖𝘜 𝘙𝘌𝘈𝘓𝘓𝘠 𝘞𝘈𝘕𝘛 𝘛𝘖 𝘛𝘈𝘓𝘒 𝘛𝘖 𝘔𝘌 𝘍𝘐𝘕𝘋 𝘚𝘖𝘔𝘌 𝘖𝘛𝘏𝘌𝘙 𝘞𝘈𝘠!" I close the window and sit back onto my bed.
Fucking assholes..
I lay in bed for a while staring at the roof, I have nothing to do. I feel nothing at the moment.. I hear a tap at the window and I look over to see Eddie staring through. I get up and walk to the window and open it up. "𝘞𝘏𝘈𝘛 𝘛𝘏𝘌 𝘍𝘜𝘊𝘒?!" I yell. "𝘞𝘌𝘓𝘓 𝘠𝘖𝘜 𝘛𝘖𝘓𝘋 𝘜𝘚 𝘛𝘖 𝘍𝘐𝘕𝘋 𝘈𝘕𝘖𝘛𝘏𝘌𝘙 𝘞𝘈𝘠 𝘐𝘕 𝘚𝘖 𝘞𝘌 𝘋𝘐𝘋!" He explained. "𝘐 𝘞𝘈𝘚𝘕'𝘛 𝘍𝘜𝘊𝘒𝘐𝘕𝘎 𝘚𝘌𝘙𝘐𝘖𝘜𝘚?! 𝘠𝘖𝘜 𝘋𝘐𝘋𝘕'𝘛 𝘏𝘈𝘝𝘌 𝘛𝘖 𝘊𝘓𝘐𝘔𝘉 𝘜𝘗 𝘛𝘖 𝘔𝘠 𝘍𝘜𝘊𝘒𝘐𝘕𝘎 𝘞𝘐𝘕𝘋𝘖𝘞 𝘚𝘖𝘔𝘌 𝘏𝘖𝘞.." "𝘞𝘌 𝘙𝘌𝘈𝘓𝘓𝘠 𝘕𝘌𝘌𝘋 𝘛𝘖 𝘛𝘈𝘓𝘒 𝘛𝘖 𝘠𝘖𝘜 𝘙𝘐𝘊𝘏𝘐𝘌 𝘑𝘜𝘚𝘛 𝘓𝘌𝘛 𝘜𝘚 𝘐𝘕 𝘠𝘖𝘜 𝘈𝘚𝘚𝘏𝘖𝘓𝘌!" I sigh and I move over so they can get in.

Me, Eddie and Bev sit on my bed, and I fidget with my fingers, my leg is bouncing like crazy.
"𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘲𝘶𝘪𝘤𝘬.. 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘥𝘢𝘺" I glance at Bev for a second and she gets it right away. "𝘖𝘬𝘢𝘺, 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦? 𝘞𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱𝘦𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘤𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘪𝘵!" Eddie exclaimed. I look away from the floor and move my eyes to Eds. "𝘌𝘥𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘪𝘴𝘯'𝘵.. 𝘐 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵.. 𝘜𝘩.. 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘵𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘯 𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘭𝘦-" I try to explain but I then get interrupted. "𝘖𝘩 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺? 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘷𝘰𝘪𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘶𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘸𝘦'𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘥𝘰 𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱 𝘺𝘰𝘶!" He has it all wrong.. Shit why is this happening.. "𝘌𝘥𝘥𝘪𝘦-!.." Bev tried to defend. "𝘕𝘰! 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘸𝘩𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶'𝘷𝘦 𝘣𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘴𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘢 𝘥𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘙𝘪𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘦!" "𝘐-.. 𝘌𝘥𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘩𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨!" He keeps.. Fucking.. Interrupting.. "𝘖𝘩 𝘥𝘰 𝘐?! 𝘐 𝘒𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘱𝘶𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘶𝘴 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵? 𝘙𝘪𝘤𝘩 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬 𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥?!" "𝘌𝘥𝘥𝘪𝘦- 𝘐-.. 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵.."  "𝘍𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘦 𝘙𝘪𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘦!!.." "𝘌𝘥𝘥𝘪𝘦, 𝘐 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘨𝘰𝘥.. 𝘎𝘌𝘛 𝘖𝘜𝘛 𝘐𝘍 𝘠𝘖𝘜'𝘙𝘌 𝘎𝘖𝘕𝘕𝘈 𝘋𝘖 𝘛𝘏𝘐𝘚!!" Eddie rolls his eyes. "𝘍𝘪𝘯𝘦, 𝘭𝘦𝘵'𝘴 𝘨𝘰 𝘉𝘦𝘷..." He gets off the bed and leaves from the window and Bev follows.
I sit up and walk to the window, I watch them leave and my eyes fill up with tears. I walk back on to the bed and I cry my eyes out. I punch my pillow. "𝘍𝘜𝘊𝘒𝘐𝘕𝘎 𝘞𝘏𝘠! 𝘞𝘏𝘈𝘛 𝘋𝘐𝘋 𝘐 𝘍𝘜𝘊𝘒𝘐𝘕𝘎 𝘋𝘖.." My sobs sound so painful, I can hear it.. Should I.. I look over to my desk before I look at the sharper sitting there..
No.. No I shouldn't..

I fucking hate my life...