I'm not acting like myself these days, but, in reality, I've been analyzing myself from far and I realized it before I wanted to.
I'm another person as the one I was. And I've been told that from my close people and I denied it many times. I just didn't want to see the truth. But it is.
And I don't like it, I loved the person I was before. I was someone that attracted people to be around, I was a ray of sunshine. And now I'm just the grey cloud hunting rain.
I tried to act like myself, like the old me, but my true nature makes me act automatically like someone sad. It's what I am now.
Maybe I'm just tired of faking, and I need to understand that I'm permanently sad. Maybe it's just the way of things right now.
