Definitely, I am sad.
I'm realizing this now, but I know it's been a long time since I have this feeling.
I can't trust no one, but my family. I can't save myself from this. I'm the one who fell for the wrong guy, I'm the one who expected something from my friends and I'm the one painted the reality with rainbows.
But me, that I always bragged about my perfect life, I feel so lonely right now. I just want to dissapear. I want to go far away, where no one knows me and where I can be sad me. I can't put a fake smile no more, is exhausting.
The point is that I don't have a clue about what did I do to be sad. Did I push my friends away myself? Did I do something wrong? Was that kiss that bad? What about the connection we had? Where did it go?
